[wishes]

Hi. I feel empty inside like nothing is there.I wear a mask everyday cause I'm scared to show my true emotions and sometimes I feel embaresed to tell people how I feel so I mostly am jolly and funny me... everynight I cry myself to sleep and I don't know I start to wonder if there is something else in life and what will happen when we die. I once tried to kill myself and all that stuff... is something terribly wrong I don't want to talk to my mum or my friends cause they'll act like they understand when they don't!

[N0help4u]

We all go through much the same feelings of loneliness and emptiness and feeling others do not understand but if you feel suicidal you really need to tell your mom you need professional help.

[JBeaucaire]

I also don't understand how a person can opt to throw their entire life away just to see what happens when they die.

You're going to die, no escaping that. So why throw away the years you have to experience and experiment with LIFE!

Your description above sounds like simple manic-depressive tendencies... if you see a doctor and tell them about it, you may find a simple treatment to get your emotions on an even keel and end your thoughts of self-destruction.

It's your life, it's worth saving, talk to a doc, find out if it's really as easy as I suspect it might be.

[ScarletSea]

OMG. I know exactly how you feel. I used to be like that. Acted like I was fine around other people but as soon as I was alone I cried, I cut. I to often thought no one will miss me once I'm gone there is a whole world filled with people why would the lose of one matter! But then I thought hey I have a good family, opportunities, why not just live life? We don't know what's going to be there when we die so why not live life just in case there is nothing. I went to therapy and it helped me a lot. I also do medatation which helps me to clear my mind of negativity.
Your not alone. I urge you just to talk to someone. Even someone over the net who understands.
I really hope I'v helped.

Xx

[chancelord]

Sure

[wishes]

Yea u did scarlet sea thanks a million

[GothGirl1771]

I used to be like that too... I cut, laughed a lot... even though I didn't even feel it, and tried to kill myself, ending up in the hospital. Its not worth it. You could be suffering from clinical depression... see someone... like a counselor.

Tell someone how you feel, maybe they'll b more understanding than you think.

[onlymyself]

You aren't alone really.
Everybody feels like that sometimes. I KNOW it's terrible but whatever you do, DON'T harm yourself. Look if you aren't supposed to be living why were you born? Don't have an answer really.. or maybe the answer is I am a mistake but nobody is a mistake... you are here because YOU DESERVE IT.
It might take time but it would pass away.
Just keep in mind that there is a person out there that you deserve and he deserves you.
=) Take care of yourself (=

[Chery]

Hi dear.

I too had doubts about my life when I was young. But I was a 'survivor' no matter what was dumped my way. Every one of us derserve our space and have a right to find happiness. Your parents might like they show no interest, maybe they are worried about you and hope that there is nothing serious and that it will pass. So, talk to them anyway, and ask them if they have any suggestions on what you can do, even trying therapy.

As has been said, we all go though stages of doubt and wonder why we are even here... but you need to give yourself a chance, find some things you like doing and don't be closing yourself up too often. We also put on masks for others at times, that's just one way of 'protecting' oneself now and then. Some of the best actors developed their talents from suffering in childhood - they found a way of dealing with it and turned their strife to their advantage.

Check some of the internet sites on depression, take some of the tests, and also read some of the stories others share, you'll find that you are not totally alone and that there is support out there.

You can start by coming back here and telling us a little more about yourself and why you feel so 'dead', maybe we can then steer you in the right direction.

Don't go through this alone, dear, share with us, family and a professional if you get worse. You deserve to be here - and we will try and help you prove it.

Good luck, and come back and tell us more. We are here 24/7 and we don't judge, we CARE! I will be gone due to cancer soon, and I had to struggle for my existence almost all my life - but I would not trade any of it - I had good and bad times, and a wonderful daughter and grandson - and still strive for every minute that's available to me.. so DON'T give up!

[wishes]

thanks but I am feeling better thanks to all of your advice. Thanks a million x.x.x.x