[modernromance09]

Ever since I was born pretty much, I've never been able to do anything in public be it sports, eating, shopping, etc. without feeling extremely uncomfortable. My anxiety is so bad that I can't enjoy myself unless I am under the influence of alcohol.. which even then I still get somewhat anxious just not as bad, it's tolerable. Whenever a guy asks me out to dinner or anywhere that involves eating, I find a way to get out of it and probably blow a ton of chances of being with many different guys. I can't eat in front of people.. I don't know why, but out of everything that's probably one of my biggest problems. And it's not just with guys, it's with my friends, family, anyone. And I can't go to the doctor.. can't afford it. Plus I'd rather actually solve my problems rather then numb myself with pills.

[Fr_Chuck]

Since this is effecting your standard of life, it is seroius and you should seep local professional help