[mjohno29]

I committed suicide I slit my wrists down properly no cry for help genuine I was saved by some kind of miracle and believe me I am not into any black death or I am not a goth I had genuine reason wich if you talk to me you will no but what I do have is the scars I cannot find love because of these scars can anyone point me in the way of a site that has other women that has had same problems

[justcurious55]

Is it the scars that are preventing you from finding love or some emotional baggage that you still have left over preventing it?

[mjohno29]

is it the scars that are preventing you from finding love or some emotional baggage that you still have left over preventing it?

It's the scars who wants a bloke with scars like mine

[mjohno29]

its the scars who wants a bloke with scars like mine

I can't keep a job too long because of what they see people see scars like that and see friek or cry out or loner

[justcurious55]

My boyfriend has a number of scars. Not from suicide attempts. He just has a bad habit of getting hurt badly. I still love him.

Your response makes me think it's much more you than the scars. Your scars only define you if you let them. If you love yourself and have confidence in yourself, others will too. Have you really worked out the things that made you try to commit suicide?

[justcurious55]

You've actually been fired because of your scars? There's something about that that just doesn't sound right.

[mjohno29]

Things are worse because I got to be strong for my son which I love but his mother is adrug addict I was brought up in care my life has been spent living in holes so I promised myself when I was 14 if I have a child I will stand bye them and never let them go through what I have been through but his mother is killing me I hate her and I am stuck I can't leave my son but I can't live with his mother she knows that and uses it against me if ever I had a reason to kill myself it is now but I can't now because he is my only blood I was left at a dump when I was a kid in a pile of covered in knits but what women will take a guy with genuine slits on his wrists

[mjohno29]

No I didn't get fired because of the scars I am a furniture fitter and at the moment there no need for them ha that another story I got done out of my redundancy pay somes up things for me

[justcurious55]

Its sounding more and more like you have a lot of emotional baggage. You need to get your priorities straight. Your own health and well being is most important. It sounds like you've been through some rough times. You need to work that out first. I recommend some personal counseling if you haven't tried it yet. A good therapist can really help you out. Also, think about what's really best for your son. Because you're right, you do need to be strong for him. Part of that is getting your own self to a healthy place. Part of that is also getting away from his mother. If she's a drug addict, your son probably isn't safe with her. You need to file for custody of him. The scars are really the least of your worries right now.

[mjohno29]

This is not America it don't work like that over here the child goes to the mother end of so I am stuck in a loveless relationship she is doing whatever she wants I am bringing my son up you no I haven't kissed a girl that I truelly like in almost 6 years and if I do talk to a girl I get so shy because of my scars that I have to walk away

[justcurious55]

You're still not getting it. You need to focus on getting yourself to a healthy mental place and raising your son and stop focusing on dating. Girls aren't interested because of the emotional baggage you clearly have, not because of the scars. And being in a relationship usually doesn't attract new girls either...