[bswc]

LOL, didn't expect the body part coming out! Nice one emopunk! Do you really need the small teddy bear and tiger? ;P

[emopunk7]

So I'm over my ex. I have no pain anymore. I wake up fine! I still think about how its weird it all ended for the second time and both being her dumping me. Ahhh
But no more pain thanks to NC and everyone here. I just have to keep progress and hang in there. I still wonder if things were my fault or not.

[amicon]

Nice pics! And now you're over her-and that's the way it stays. A new year-a new chapter. Take care.

[emopunk7]

I only waited for you, but nothing was ever enough.
Well it's been too long and I can't have this rough.
When memories always stay, I start a fire in my head.
Only wishing you never showed up, only wishing you were dead.
My actions bring out the worst in you, but please keep it under control.
But you've been broken for way too long, and now we're at our low.
The maps are lost and any way seems right, except towards you.
Still you're a magnet, but I'm turning fast, yes it's true.
Cause pain missing a girl is better than pain fighting a girl you love.
Don't start a fight tonight so please drop your gloves.
Please realize I've moved on is what you said.
It makes a lie to everything you wrote, everything I've read.
So kiss your hands left to right and slap your hands.
Act like you know what your doing, but still it stands.
Now go and lie, you're interior will always remain.
Pictures and a show don't fool cause you're still so plain.
So I got me a car with great interior that reminds be there is better.
I've created a new life, and now I'm writing this letter.
If you had it bad, then I had it hell.
I have it heaven, and I'm glad we fell.
Quick as you left, quick as someone came.
I'm tired of your games, they're stupid and lame.
This one doesn't complain. She's completely sane.
No scenes in the streets, but we show up at the scene.
Yea we rock out, if you know what I mean.
She gives me space, she's not a feen.
Therefore I treat her like a queen.
She doesn't have much insecurities, she's pretty confident.
Makes her sexier, makes me happier, some can say heaven sent.

[emopunk7]

I think I need some support right now. I feel a bit down. I did go out with a friend last night and had a good time. Still I found myself missing my ex I think. Like just thinking of what we had and how strange it is that its been 3 months of NC. This never happened. It's a bit sad especially seeing my brother with my ex sister a lot. My ex and I were just as close if not closer. I'm pretty sad.

[amicon]

Its just one of those moments of regret with maybe some loneliness thrown in. You know by now that it'll pass.

[emopunk7]

Yeah but I don't feel like doing anything... I haven't gone to the gym in almost 3 days... whats happening? I need your help!

[talaniman]

I feel the same Emo, post holiday blues I guess, just one of those low energy days after a great holiday. Believe I almost slept through the first game of a double header on Fox??

It happens. But I don't have an ex to dwell on, you shouldn't either for that matter. Its been how long??

[emopunk7]

Thanks TMan! I suppose it is the blues. I guess I had a lot to look forward to like Christmas and being with the family. Now its over but I had a blast. Now not much to look forward to. I did buy myself an IPOD Touch though and I will go to the gym tonight to feel that power I've been missing. I really appreciate you and Amicon for coming to my rescue. I don't know what it is. I would like to vent on my next post about signs I should have noticed in my last relationship and all the red flags.

[emopunk7]

Red Flags... She broke up with me the first time. I was at my families house and it bothered her. I called to let her know everything is okay and trying to be a good boyfriend but she was out with her phone off. Then hours later she answered and then she gave me attitude and said she can do what she wants and that its too bad so I said f u to her because she was talking down to me and we hung up. Then she called me at about 5am saying "baby we should talk and fix this" but that same night she went out again without letting me know and by the next day she wanted a break and a week later she broke up with me. Confused why still.
Fast forward 7 months and she is back in the scene. I never really did NC then. We spoke and she was having issues with her guy and so was I and we hung out one day without our SO knowing. After a month we really started hangin out and broke up with our SO. She said she still didn't want a relationship because she knows she wouldn't be able to control herself and she would flip out as usual. I said no and that we won't fight and well I convinced her. I CONVINCED HER!!
Then we started having problems although I was in cloud nine with her and probably always wouldve been. She threatened leaving me and would always say I'm going to end up single and alone. Which is true now. Makes me sad.
Red flags are that I had to convince her to be with me. She would curse me out again and act crazy during arguments. She would threaten to leave me a lot. She would constantly say she is done and gives up. She would throw me out of her house a lot.

During an argument I never cursed her out unless she did first which is still no excuse but never would start it.

I never threatened to leave.

I never threw her out of my house.

Maybe I was too in love to realize that she just didn't love me the same.

[emopunk7]

Any comments? I'm sooo tired... will try to hit the gym in a few. I'm so hungry!

[amicon]

I hope you wake up to a great morning-and make plans for new things to look forward to. Leave the past where it belongs-in the past.
Now off to the gym with you.

[smoothy]

Its simple withdrawal. Everyone experiences this after any breakup in all but the most abusive ones and sometimes even then.

Just keep your eyes forward on the future and do NOT look back. Do NOT think about her, do not talk to her, text her, email her, call her or answer any calls from her. If you see her on the street cross the street to the opposite side. Avoid her in every way possible until you have truly moved on... it will make that period easier. In the meantime focus on what's really important... if that's school or work then focus on that.

If you don't completely trust your partner and they completely trust you then you don't have the sort of relationship you should have and its time to move on. Consider this an important lesson in life. Learn from it, don't repeat it or ignore it.

[emopunk7]

Is this line forever true?

I can't take my mind off you, till I find somebody new.

Is that forever true?

[Romefalls19]

Nope not true, I still think about my ex from time to time. It's natural. I don't think about still being with her but now that everything has settled, I just wonder if it's everything she's ever wanted

[Synnen]

Hell, I still think about boyfriends from 20 years ago. There's one I've been trying to FIND for 10 years, just to say hello to (Ryan, if you're listening... get on Facebook or something!).

Finding someone new isn't an antidote to thinking about your ex.

You SHOULD think about your ex from time to time.

But honestly--the BEST cure for getting stuck in an obsessive loop of thinking about her is to go out and volunteer to help people who are REALLY down on their luck. Join Habitat for Humanity or your local soup kitchen.

[Cat1864]

Is this line forever true?

I can't take my mind off of you, till I find somebody new.

Is that forever true?

Nope, I still think of the guy that I dated in High School every now and then.

I use the end of the old year as a time to look at old pictures. It's a time to reflect and be thankful for the good times while trying to forgive the bad ones. The new year is a time to put away the old pictures and pick up the camera. New pictures for new memories.

Happy New Year, emo. :)

[emopunk7]

Can you be an emotional abuser while at the same time be a good person overall in the outside world?

Amicon!! I went home last night and got ready for the gym but then I fell asleep. I looked at an alert on my phone at 415am and I woke up and went to the gym! It felt great to be back! I'm going back tonight when I get out of work!

[Romefalls19]

Yea, look at someone like Chris Brown. He was perfect to the fans and outside world, in private, he was an abuser. First at emotional levels then to physical.

[Something_Here]

Just to clarify, when you guys think of the ex, it's just a happy memory right? It's not like it makes you sad or anything?