[lovebird120]

I do a bad thing... I pick my face and my lips and my back and my fingers and all my scabs... I do it when I'm stressed and mad and sad and in a hurry and bored, I rarely do it when I'm happy (but I'm rarely ever happy) and I was wondering if its bad (other than the ugly pick scars) if it means there's something mentally wrong, I like the pain it relieves stress and makes me feel better and I stop doing other things to be able to pick at myself..

[Clough]

Hi, lovebird120!

What else do you do during the day?

[lovebird120]

Right now I just sit at home alone all day with my baby, he's a handful and stresses me out a lot, also I talk to my boyfriend on instant messaging all day and he stresses me out a little... then my boyfriend gets home from work and I continue to pick but he tries to stop me and I just get mad that he won't let me

[Clough]

Hi again, lovebird120!

Have you ever sought out professional help for your problem?

Thanks!

[lovebird120]

Well I'm asking this question to SEE if id need professional help... I don't know if its really a bad thing or not...
Why could it be? Like what mentally would be wrong for me to do that? I don't get it...

[Clough]

Anyone who does something physically to themselves, on a regualy basis, that might be harmful, would benefit by seeking out the advice and help of a professional counselor.

You're not a bad person.

Is there some reason that you haven't sought out the advice and help of someone who is a professional?'

Thanks!

[lovebird120]

Well I guess because I have SO much other stuff to worry about and SO much other stuff id need to talk to a professional about, I'm a young mother and I don't have much money to go see someone I don't have insurance for myself so I think itd be very expensive, when I was in school I talked to someone there but I don't go there any more so I had to stop seeing her

[Clough]

There are counselors at clinics that oporate on a sliding fee scale. Sometimes, a person might even be able to see a professional for no cost at all.

But, the thing is, that you have to make the effort and go looking for them.

If you go to a community actioin type of agency, they might be able to put you in touch with someone who could counsel you.

[lovebird120]

Thank you so much you were very helpful... I will make it a point to find someone

[Clough]

If you let me know, on this thread, where you're located, it's possible that I might be able to locate an agency near to you that can help you.

Thanks!

[Gemini54]

I'd like to reinforce what Clough has said - your scan picking is a form of obsessive compulsive disorder combined with wanting to cause yourself pain.

It's really important that you get some professional help. I understand that these sorts of disorders are reasonably easy to treat, so imagine how good you'll feel when you stop doing it!