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Harshness Alert.
The only thing you can do is keep running your head into a brick wall, and knock yourself silly.
Its funny how those strong feeling you had didn't make you stay where you were, and only after your grand plan to boot the poor girl, and get another, didn't work, do you want to run back to safety like a scalded dog. You didn't care then, you don't care now, you just want someone for your own needs, to help you hide the fact you are selfish, and needy, for something to make you feel good. Sorry, but that's the breaks when you throw away the bird you have, for the two you think are in the bush.
Come on, yet another thread looking for the same thing as before, and you really think the advice will change?
Go back, and read ALL your other posts, and if you want, they can all be merged for you. How's that?
Accept what you did, and move on, or have some good insurance, because it would be a lot easier knocking down that brick wall with your hard head, than getting her back.
That's my advice.