[Jinxz]

Hello all,

I need some help on a touchy topic. I think I have clinical depression and I haven't talked to anyone about it yet. Its my 3rd year and Im sick and tired of it. I want to get better. I hate having negative thoughts, and having all these sad, raged, happy bursts of mood. I seem like a happy and hyper person but when I get home I break down and cry. Im so strange and messed up, I hate it now. Through out my years, Ive tried sucicide (3 times), but I got out of it, with the help of my dear friend. But now, she's having troubles of her own and I can't talk to her about mine... I don't know who to go to now... I don't know what to do anymore, I feel worthless, all the things I used to love are fading away. My favourite subject at school (Science) is so challenging and frustrating now. I can't do anything right at all, Im a complete failiture at everything, even the simplest of things.
The friend I talked to last year said I should get some help, but I refused, but now I think I need some, I don't want to go to a counseller and tell that stranger everything, and I heard about Anti-depressants. I want to get some. I can't handle this anymore, I need something. How would I get some? Can I walk into a Walk In Health Clinic and see a doctor and tell him I have depression and ask for Anti-depressants? I doubt it's that easy though, what do I have to do? I don't want my parents to know either. I don't want to explain to that doctor my whole life story either. How do I go on about getting some? (Btw Im 15)

[N0help4u]

You have to either go to a psychologist and tell them how you feel or a family doctor.
You can try vitamin B complex, vitamin D and some other natural supplements to see if they help.
Have you talked with your parents about this?

[Jinxz]

Wouldn't seeing a psychologist cost quite a bit of money though? Me, nor my family, has a lot to spare since the recession in Canada and I wouldn't want to spend so much money on myself. And no, I haven't talked to my parents about this.. it doesn't seem they understand, when I try to get a start on it, either my dad starts yelling at me or my mom starts blamining it on my sleep or my time spent on the computer or something bogus like that ><.

[Jinxz]

You can try vitamin B complex, vitamin D and some other natural supplements to see if they help.

I just searched up natural supplements for depression, and I came across something famaliar, St Johns Wort , do you know if that's any good? I may buy it tomorrow or after tomorrow...

[J_9]

It's not good for a 15 year old. Please do not take any supplements without the approval of your doctor.

[Jinxz]

Even if its natural? If I go to a walk in clinic and ask, would it be all right then?

What could happen if I take them?

[J_9]

Natural? That is the question here.

St John's wort contains many different chemicals. Some are thought to be the active ingredients. How these chemicals actually work in the body is not clear.

St John's Wort (Hypericum) | Health | Patient UK

No medication, herbal or otherwise should be taken without consulting your doctor first. ESPECIALLY with children and teens.

[Jinxz]

What if I talked to not my family doctor but just a doctor?

[J_9]

Talking to your family doctor is fine. He/she will then determine if you need meds and what kind as well as whether you need to see a therapist.

[Jinxz]

What about just a normal doctor??