I have several cousins who are adopted, and know personally the trauma that the adoptive family goes through because of changes of mind like yours.
I understand how heartwrenching this must be for you, but my advice is, now that you have done it, think that it was for the best, and think about being a mother in the future, or maybe even adopting yourself. Adoption is a complicated and arduous legal procedure, and the family who adopted your son has gone through a lot to do so. Think how hard it would be for them, and for your son, to give up a child they've nurtured and loved for maybe a year now!
If it's hard for you, by now it would be even harder for them. Maybe you can learn from your mistakes and look forward to being a parent again soon.
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