Yes. Well that's part of the whole thing. He shouldn't have said anything at all, but he did. And now that he did, I think, to tell me that he won't tell me anything more is mean.
I feel like I have to defend myself, I don't, but I feel like I have to. We do have some mutual friends and I wonder if it's one of them saying things. I just have a lot of doubt about friends saying things.
They do have a right to worry about him but I have a right to know what is being said about me as well. I know if the tables were turned he would be adament about me telling him everything.
And his reasoning for not wanting to tell me who these "friends" are is because he doesn't want me saying anything to them and causing a fight.
So what am I supposed to do with all of these hurt feelings? It's like he's protecting their feelings, and I just have to deal with the fact that he said that in the first place, weather he meant to or not, I'm stuck with it all.
When he made the comments about friends saying they were worried he could get hurt, it was just one of the things he rattled off. All he would say about them was that he thinks their comments were just about the distance. I doubt that... now.
I do feel sad. I feel hurt and on a level betrayed. I know he cares for his friends but I feel like my feelings are less important here, and considering he wants to marry me, they sure don't feel like it in this situation.
Am I reading this wrong?
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