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What would you do if some guy that you loved mailed you this letter to you. Please give me your honest opinion. I apologize for the (), they are peoples names and I had to take them out. I hope you can still understand it. The... is her name. Oh and the voicemail was her confessing how much she loved me.
Dear..
I got your voicemail seconds right after you left it. It completely caught me off guard and I didn’t know what to say. I tried calling you back but you were asleep. The rest of that night I zoned in and out of consciousness because I couldn’t stop thinking about what you said. My restless heart rapidly beat all night. I listened to that voicemail quite a few times that night and even more the next day. It is now early Monday morning and I have been working on this letter since I woke up on Saturday.
... you are a very strong person. I know you have been hurt, and no one deserves to be hurt like you have been. I never got to know (my son), and I never got the chance to raise him, his mother did. You got to know (your daughter). You were there for her, everyday of her life. Just as you are for (your son). What (your first ex) did was unforgivable and moronic. Not only did it he completely destroy (your daughters) relationship with her biological mother, but severed many immense opportunities for you. And the way (your second ex) treats you is appalling. He thinks that treating you like crap makes him look good, but in reality it makes him look like nothing more than a simple minded loser. Your twenty-one years young and for you to have to deal with all this is absurd. I wouldn’t have the heart to do that too you, I love and care about you way too much to do anything remotely close. I know how some guys wouldn’t want a girl with a kid because it’s not their kid, I however don’t care about that, I love both you and (your son) and I would treat him as my own.
I miss you a lot. I miss lying next to you and holding you and cuddling with you. I miss the hand rubbing and the finger playing. I even miss watching low budget horror films with you, lol. I loved it when you would bury your head next to mine and I could feel your warm breath sigh me to sleep. The way you would get on top of me and kiss me; the way we would interlace our legs; the way I could feel your heartbeat makes me so happy and sure. I miss slowly and lightly touching your face and brushing your hair behind your ear. I miss you falling asleep in my arms and the security and sanctity that I instilled in you.
I do love you, more than I lead you to believe. Any opportunity I get to go to Adelanto or the hi-desert I take. I just don’t know if I am ready for a full-blown relationship right now and I don’t want to risk it in case I am not. When I am ready for a full-blown relationship I want it to be with you. I love you so much.. I feel that I can tell you anything; even some of the inappropriate stuff which turns out to be funny most of the time. Most of my secrets you already know and the ones that you don’t know, the opportune moment to tell you just hasn’t occurred yet. You know more about me than anyone I know. You are an incredibly amazing person that I can see myself with not just in a boyfriend/ girlfriend relationship, but a lifetime commitment. I think I feel that I may be in love with you but I don’t know for sure yet.
I apologize for (my friend) unprofessional conduct and the way he depicted himself as a guest. I only wish that I had said something sooner so that you didn’t have to deal with him. (my friend) is my friend and I should have enforced the rules more strictly upon him. Please understand though, he grew up without a mother and all his irresponsible dad does is spend the rent money on cheap liquor and piss water beer. His dad refuses to work and (my friend) has grown up seeing that laziness is okay. He is ignorant to his own behavior and doesn’t realize that what he is doing is not only inappropriate, but also unacceptable. I know he is still bothered by the fact that you rifled through his backpack without his permission, but he has come to terms that he was holding your property captive and you had every right to repossess your belongings. I know he is sorry. Maybe that’s why when he badmouths me behind my back I don’t get upset or angry, instead I just feel sorry for him that this was the way he was brought up. I hope that ultimately you can do the same.
Your voicemail was far from, “retarded and ridiculous.” You completely opened your heart up and told me how you felt. It is a very hard thing to do that and I must say that was very bold of you.. I love you too, I don’t ever want to hurt you and I have never felt that I could trust anyone as much as I do you. You will never lose me, and at the very least we will always be friends and I will always be there for you when you need someone. The more we argue and continue to work things out, the closer we become. If just a month ago we were just starting to discover our feelings for each other and now not only have we found them but we are in tune with them, imagine where we will be in a month from now. I don’t want to get too ahead of myself right now and I don’t want to tell you everything in this letter, I still want to tell you some things in person. I love you... Take care…
Love forever,
(me)
P.S. In case your wondering why I haven’t called or when I do call I don’t say much, its because I am scared. Not of you but of the situation. I am not sure what to say or what to do. I just hope that this letter explains everything and you can understand the way I feel.
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