[i cant do this]

My mother hits me, tells me she hates me and doesn't want me here but every time, I go to leave she hurts me so bad, I'm a self harmer, my mother doesn't know I used to be an alcholoic and have an eating disorder and my mother never knew. I've been self harming for three years. I used to take recreational drugs, and turned to sex for some form of love
I want to kill myself because of my mam she calls me so many things.
Someone help please
Anon

[shazamataz]

Do not resort to killing yourself.
That is never the answer to any problem, no matter how bad it seems.

Help is always available and although it may not seem like it, things won't always seem so bad.
It will get better.

Have you talked to anyone about this?
Friends?
A school counselor?

You have done the first step which is asking for help which is great.
Now I think you need to talk to someone in a more professional position.
School counselors are completely confidential and you mom won't find out that you have been talking to them. They will be able to help you and povide you with invaluable advice on how to tackle this situation with your mom.

There are also many free confidential help lines you can call 24 hours a day.

[i cant do this]

Do not resort to killing yourself.
That is never the answer to any problem, no matter how bad it seems.

Help is always available and although it may not seem like it, things won't always seem so bad.
It will get better.

Have you talked to anyone about this?
Friends?
A school councellor?

You have done the first step which is asking for help which is great.
Now I think you need to talk to someone in a more proffesional position.
School councellors are completely confidential and you mom won't find out that you have been talking to them. They will be able to help you and povide you with invaluable advice on how to tackle this situation with your mom.

There are also many free confidential help lines you can call 24 hours a day.

My mothers took my phone, and I couldn't speak about it my words get traped and a lump comes to my throte, and I feel as though I'm going to die. I don't know what I can do. Cutting isn't even helping this pain

[shazamataz]

Please stop cutting yourself, I know it feels good at the time but you will regret it later in life.

If you have trouble getting the words out write everything you are feeling in a letter, all your thoughts and feeling and what your current troubles are.

It will help you to understand what is going on more. Put it away for a day, sleep on it then read it back to yourself.

It might help you understand what you are truly feeling.

You can then show the letter to your mother or to someone else that you trust. A school counselor would also be a good person to show it to.

No-one is going to think badly of you because of your thoughts and you really need to try to talk to someone about it and I think the letter would be a good way to start :)

[Alty]

Sweetie you need help with this, much more help then we can give you.

We're here to listen, no doubt about that, but you need to go to therapy and get all this out in the open.

Where is your father, can you turn to him for help?

How about an older sibling or Aunt, grandmother, some adult you trust?

You could go to the school counsellor, let him/her know what's going on at home. These peole are there to help you, and that's what you need right now, help.

You can't stay in this situation and you can't keep hurting yourself. You have your whole life ahead of you and though it may seem pretty bad right now, there is hope around the corner, you just have to find the right corner.

Come back and talk to us, let's see if we can figure out a way to get you the help you need.

P.S. Shaz, I had to spread the rep but I agree with everything you said. :)