[south]

Ummm, I'm new to this but well here it goes: before I met my ex I was into all kinds of drugs and ill-advised behaviour. The one night I met her, and instantly we were attracted to each other, it was really strange, anyhow, we had a few dances, talked and then exchanged numbers. Finally we met up after about a week, and went for a walk, talked etc (the usual), now despite my past, which shed heard about, this girl accepted me for me, and upon realizing this I quit all the funny business, and went into college, all with her help. About a year into the relationship I became convinced (by so called friends) that I shouldn't be in this relationship, and I acted really badly toward her, completely destroyed her trust, in short anything I could think of to make her split up with me. During this I also 'pushed' her and another guy together, as I knew I would be back with her otherwise. We split after 2 years, and now she's gone to leeds with this other guy. Its been about 3 months since we split, and I've been devastated. I know what I did was horrible, and really nasty, but I realise what I've done and desperately want her back. I love her so much, and am in love with her, that it physically hurts just thinking about what id done. I know she's still got feelings too, but because of everythin I did she's not letting me work it out. Is there any advice? Because this is the real deal, I know I could quite happily spend my life with her, and it used to be the same from her, till I messed up. I don't care what it would take. I'm a taurus and she's a libra, if that has any bearing? Many thanks in advance

[Krs]

If you where so sure why did u mess up a good thing you had going? :confused:

You destroyed her trust!
Trust is 1 thing in a relationship that either takes a lot of time to gain back or never gain it back at all. Sorry.

[south]

I really don't know, all I can say on it is that if I had a time machine id go back and kick my own backside:mad: I really am head over heels for her, she is perfect :unhappy:

[Krs]

Well, if you really mean this, then all I can suggest is get in touch with her and explain how sorry you are and that you will change for you and her.
If she accepts do a trial run so that in that period u can prove to her your changes and love and respect and trust for her.
It will be difficult and hard work,it all depend how far you are willing to prove you have changed and won't repeat your stupid mistakes.

[south]

Ach, if only it was so easy :( I've been trying that for the last 4 months, but I really do mean it, and il give everythin I can think of a shot, thanks :)

[Krs]

Good Luck.
But you said you've been trying for 4 months already.. which to me gives you your answer.