[susanrj]

Hi there, my name is Susan, I am 28 Indian married having 1 year old son. I am feeling very lonely and feeling that this life is just hell for me... I really don’t know how to handle this situation always when ever I am in trouble I always try to make a wise decision... I had a living relation with my husband... I have always loved him when I got pregnant that the he told me he just lived with me for fun not want to to have baby and as if now he can't get marry me and will after some time. I accept his decision and made a choose to abort the baby but can't go to hospital and do as we stay in middle east and abortion is not allowed so we tried home remedies but got failed and at 4 month we got married. We always had a relation where he try’s to rule me as he says man should rule the house and I don’t know but I starting loose interested in my life. He told me he never loved me and want to to marry some one else. He says he don’t want our baby and can give him for adoption. Many time asked me to leave the house with the baby…. As he knows I don’t have a place to go. If I ask him to take care of the baby maximum for 10mins he can be with him then he starts shouting and yelling or grabs him badly that he starts crying so I gets scared to leave him with my husband. I know he love both of us, but the way he treat us is really bad some time…. He is not even ready to listen also I can share my problem with anyone as always I have made him the best husband and father on this earth…. My mistake but I don’t have any support from any one family or friends….on my 7th month he got physical with me as it was our 1st anniversary and I asked him to spend some time so he got angry and slapped me but he said sorry and we made it... he took care of me during my pregnancy and even after delivery but after some time he started shouting yelling and throwing things... on xmas we throw my baby on bed so we got physical and again he said sorry and we made it... few days back my son was sick so we went to hospital and came back and I asked if he can give bath to him so he said OK and started irritating baby and he started crying so I went and asked to leave and then he grabbed baby's face badly so I asked its enough and I want to leave the house I can't see he always hurt my baby he didn’t allow so I started shouting again he got physical with me so I also shouted and called him bastard and all... its now three days he is coming late not talking to me and he is taking house key with him as he thinks I might leave the house... from the time I came into his life he is having financial problem and he hates my family too.
I cry... I almost cried my whole life... I fell I should die but when I think about my baby I get weak about this decision... what is my future... what is my babies future... how should I control him bcoz of his this type of nature I also became very stubborn and got anger in me... help me I don’t have any one...
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[Ren6]

I fear that if you do not leave your situation, your baby may be killed or severely injured, and you as well. Is there any way you can talk with a trusted family member and reveal the truth about your husband? That he has been physically abusive to both you and the baby? Also, is there an organization that assists battered women in your area?

This is a bad situation for you to be in, and you need to get out.

[Ren6]

Here... I found this. You said in another post that you are in Bahrain?

Gulf Daily News: New centre to help abused women | Bahrain Center for Human Rights

[unspeaken21]

susanrj please try everything in your power to leave this man forever.. if he tells you he will change do not believe him.. people with his problem never change..
I think he is possessive and controlling and manipulating and takes out all of his anger and frustrations out on you and your son.. Do you really think this is a way love should be shown?

This guy is danger..
You should tell your friends and family the truth about this man because you are going to need all the support you can get.. the more you lie to them and yourself the harder it will be.. Just try to find at least one friend who can support you through this..
Right now you think you don't have a place to go.. but in the process you will find a place, just try to save a bit of money (im assuming you don't work)...

Do this for yourself and do this for your child
If you stay in this relationship your child will have major daddy issues..

Whatever the reason, this man is not supposed to treat his baby, or any baby, or you like that...

You can never control a man like that.. the more you stay with him, the more you will over think things that possibly might not be true...

I wish you the best of luck, no matter what your decision is, but I hope you protect yourself and your baby...

Goodluck