
Originally Posted by
Justwantfair
You are probably the individual who needs the most counseling at this point. Right now you aren't much of an example to either of your children.
Three abusive relationship support the fact that you are the one in need of assistance. It is going to be difficult to break the cycle, but you have to the strong one for your children. When you are talking about struggling it is worth it for your children.
I completely agree. Without going into too much detail,and just stating facts which may sound like blame, however blame no matter the recipient of it, never helps. In the past, when abused, I took it out on myself with substances. That is finally in the past. I'm not whining when I say, I have no support at this tiime (otherwise I wouldn't be telling perfect strangers these personal things).
Right now I can't drive. (wreckage of my past and financial ruin). I have hope, I envision the day, hopefully not to far in the future where it's just me and my boys. I know they look forward to that also. I do fear that if I don't get the help now, what if they become the bullies that have influenced them.
I'm open to any criticism/suggestions. Are you a professional or a survivor or both?