[utteridiot]

Hi, long story short, we have been together for over 3 years and we are our only partners, (or were) but split up 2 months ago and have just started talking, our relationship begun to breakdown (lots of arguing and fighting) and I believed for some reason a break would help but never said I wanted a break as such, I was confuzed!! And ended it pretty quick, the thing is I started a rebound relationship and ended up having sex with her, (even though it only lasted a few minutes before we stopped that's pretty irrelevant) I was having no contact with my girlfriend and started to date this other girl and for the life of me I can't think what I was doing, I was very emotional and screwed up in the head so to speak. I love my girlfriend with all of my heart and I cannot understand why I had a rebound relationship let alone begin to describe that to her. All I want to do is forget this has ever happened, try my best to regain her respect and trust no matter what it takes, she has taken it very hard and only seemed to be getting over me when we begun talking the other day. I spent hours on the phone trying to bring to words how sorry I am and that I have made the biggest mistake of my life, She is wavering as to wheather or not to give me anouther chance, she knew I was dating this girl but never spoke rang or emailed me, none of my friends or familly slapped me and woke me up and know I have no idea what to do as she is my best friend and the only person I really talk to, I have a hypnotherapist who has helped me with motivation for doing work who I'm arranging to see but I don't know how to tell her how sincear I am and do my best to win her back, Im finishing with the other girl first chance I get w/o just doing it over the phone. Ive probably missed bits so just ask, this is happening so fast so I would be so so so greatfull for replys right now, I've actually considered committing suicide over how bad I feel about what I've done and messed up

[talaniman]

Stay out of relationships, and work on you being a better person.

Suicide is the easy way out of your pain, and not a good solution, but learning to coping with your feelings, is a much more mature way of dealing with any situation.

You have made way too much of being with someone, and need to be happy with yourself first, just to have something good to share with another.

[JohnD212]

If you have truly considered suicide then I highly suggest you seek professional help... a good therapist.

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.