[Disadev]

So right now I am dying for school to start so I can finally make new friends. Except I've been saying that since I started high school. This will be my senior year and my classes actually seem fun this year and enough to reduce the stress of trying to get into college. Everyone says I'll make friends in college, but what about now? I've been waiting for friends, for people to understand me, and people to love me for years now and I'm sick of waiting. It's driving me crazy.

And I honestly try at school to get to know people, but I don't understand how they think we'll keep in touch. We usually only have one class together or actually none at all and I just see them in the hallway occasionally. But when I do talk to them and know that I'll never see them again, they never give me their screen name or something to keep in touch with them.
Plus sometimes when I talk to people, who I know talk all the time, they just stop paying attention. People always barely hear my voice, and I try to talk as loud as appropriate, but it seems like my words just zip past their ears.

Moving on, basically, I'm confined to the house because I'm afraid of my neighborhood and everyone in my family is working because we don't have any income right now. So I'm bored out of my mind, and alone all day in the house. At 7 though I can usually call my "best friend" or 10 years, but when I talk to her now our opinions clash so much that I feel worse than before I talk to her. But I feel addicted because if I don't talk to her, I'm not able to talk to anyone else the rest of the day.

What am I to do to talk to an understanding human being? The internet seems like a good option, but safe chat sites with "understanding" people are hard to come by. Help!

[speed797]

I know exactly what you mean. My partents don't let me have contact with anyone outside of my house other than at school. I don't have any friends at school and I am always lonely. If you just stop trying or maybe go around and bike of walk around your neighborhood and you will probably find someone. I found one and got a cell phone that my parents don't know about so I can have some decent human interaction. Hope this helps!! :)

[LifesNotEasy]

To be honest when you leave school everything becomes easier. I was one of those people that got slagged of all the time but in the end I'm the one that ended up with the most lovable husband and 5 wonderful kids. Most the girls that hated me are now single mums and guys are just jerks.
Decent people are hard to come by but I promise you that you'll find someone.