[hjpan]

I just want to show to my ex that I will be successful and if she had not dumped me, she would've been standing right next to me, not around me.

[ISneezeFunny]

Yeah... and she'll see that... as long as you do it for yourself, not for her.

[bigbird213]

As far as the dating issue goes, I think as long as your thinking about your ex and still being sad about them yo uaren't ready to be dating anyone else yet. You don't want to rush into someone and end up worse off in a few months than you are now. I know people who tried that, then when the rebound ends, you find yourself thinking about your original ex and feeling worse than you did. Plus, you might regret the rebound...

[pwtnu4]

Man I really really really hate dreams sometimes... I literally dreamed about my ex the entire night... I know that because I woke up a few times and remembered my dreams vividly, I thought I was getting much better and now I feel like crap all over again... its been 13 days of no contact and I plan on sticking with it still though, arggghhh

[jiltedgirl]

I met up with my ex this weekend. It was weird to say the least. I was excited to see him and see how he was doing, but something was off. I think it's the realization that we won't be anything more for each other? I'm glad I got to see him though.

[PsYcHoSiS]

Will be seeing her again tomorrow, my feelings for her aren't as strong.. Because I've realised she isn't someone who will/wasn't there for me, nor did she ever appreciate all the things I done for her.. I've come to terms with the fact, although I am not as upset as I was I am mainly dissapointed.. I guess now when it's ended, I have had a true glimpse at her character... Completely selfish, but yeah I will survive!

And it's been uhhh.. 5 days NC..

[plonak]

Ick.. I'm feeling especially lonely right now.. my friends aren't getting back to me, no one is online, and I can't help but miss my ex and I feel really horrible..

I was told about the rollar coaster coaster emotions that I would go through, but I guess you can't truly know what they're like unless you go through them yourself.. and lately it's been quite low and staying low.. I hate this..

[bigbird213]

Its tough when you can't get ahold of people and you want to keep yourself busy. I used to find that watching something on TV (especially something that's a comedy/pretty funny) was the next best thing. Laughing helped me to keep my mind off trying to get busy and her...

Then there's always spending time on here talking to people :p

[ISneezeFunny]

Or picking at your belly button.

.. but be careful. Don't go too deep.

[jiltedgirl]

So I've let a day pass by, and I'm still weirded out after meeting up with the ex. I got in pretty late into the city and he came to a party where our mutual friends were. He was quite inebriated. He told me how he had "missed me a little" while I was gone. I replied sarcastically and half-jokingly, "Well, don't I feel special." I reminded him I was there to visit my friend, not him.

Odd thing happened though. He usually projects this proud, egotistical persona around me, but for the first time, he let his guard down (probably because he had a few drinks) and let his vulnerable side show. He mentioned the pressure of juggling school and work, paying his way through school, and helping his family financially by himself. I used to get annoyed and shoot down any arrogant statements or behavior, but this time, I actually wanted to comfort the poor guy. I wanted to tell him that I'd be there for him if he needed someone to lean on and mean it, but I held myself back. I didn't want either of us to get emotionally involved again. He already has enough on his plate while I frankly just cannot commit to anyone right now. He kept paying for everything, too, which made me feel even worse since he's on a budget (I'm not.)

I'm not sure how I feel or how he feels. Nor am I sure of where we stand, but I honestly don't want to think about it anymore. Gyah.

When in doubt, pursue NC. Hence, I guess I'm restarting NC. Lol.

[kaneda]

Four weeks of NC tomorrow. I do feel better,but still its almost every day that I wake up and my first thought is of him. I hope those will ends soon.

[jiltedgirl]

Four weeks of NC tomorrow. I do feel better,but still its almost every day that i wake up and my first thought is of him. I hope those will ends soon.

It does. If not, the potency of the feelings associated with thoughts of him will diminish at the very least. Hang in there! You are doing great!:)

[losingit77]

In a very weird turn of events, after 4 months apart the ex and I saw each other last weekend at his request. He's been trying to call me for weeks but I've been avoiding it. So, last weekend we met up for lunch which turned into an all day event (lunch, shopping, TV, dinner, etc.) He just said how much he missed me and how it was like losing a best friend.

Then, on Monday he asks me to go to dinner. He shows up with a gift for me. The gift was a $400 handbag! Crazy, I know. But whatever, after 4 years together I deserve a parting gift.

So, anyway. Feel fine. It was weird to see him again. It was like going back in a time capsule. We always did get a long well and we still do. The weird part was realizing that my feelings have diminished. While it was fun to hang out and I do truly like him as a person, those "love" feelings just weren't there for me anymore. I saw him through clear eyes and with a clear head. Time does have a way of clearing things up for you.

[ISneezeFunny]

o.O

Losingit... I thought that "I deserves a parting gift" was by far, one of the funniest things I've read.

The first paragraph, I thought, "oh no..." the dinner line, I thought, "ohhh...:(" then... parting gift. Genius.

Hope this doesn't cloud your head... and hope your ex doesn't get any mixed messages from this.

... hm... I'm due for a parting gift. I want one.

[bigbird213]

o.O

losingit...I thought that "I deserves a parting gift" was by far, one of the funniest things I've read.

The first paragraph, I thought, "oh no..." the dinner line, I thought, "ohhh...:(" then...parting gift. genius.

hope this doesn't cloud your head...and hope your ex doesn't get any mixed messages from this.

...hm...I'm due for a parting gift. I want one.

Sneezy, I thought the same thing. After all these "dinner" posts, there is usually only one following statement, and I was about to yell at losingit :)

I got a parting gift, sort of... but I had to pay for it :(

[losingit77]

Sneezy - haha I know! When I first opened the present, I was like "oh no, I don't know if i should accept this." then I was like "screw it, i earned this!" And I told him that.

It hasn't clouded my head at all. For the first time, I know now what I've been feeling and that is level-headed. It is nice to know that I wasn't just thrown away or anything and while we're no longer together and never ever will be again, we still hold special place in each other's hearts. Ah, memories!

Well, I got to date with a new guy tonight. : ) I think I'll bring my new purse.

[losingit77]

Bigbird - Don't worry about me. I'm not crazy... or at least that crazy! I would never get back involved with that drama.

[ISneezeFunny]

Hah. I got HER a parting gift... mainly because it was right before christmas.. . I didn't get one. Joke's on me I guess.

... hm. Wonder if I can call her to get MY parting/christmas gift.

Not sure if I actually updated this, but I'll update my "I am doing NC" post later. Not much has happened... cept I won. Bwahahha

[bigbird213]

+1 for Sneezy :)

[bigbird213]

Bigbird - Don't worry about me. I'm not crazy....or atleast that crazy! I would never get back involved with that drama.

Good to hear :)

Glad to hear your doing well :)