[confused smurf]

OK so here's the thing in high school I met this guy and I ended up dating him we had a small break up between but got back to gether but right before I left for college he asked me to marry him and I replied with a yes but when my friend introduced me to her friend I really started to like this other guy. As the year went on my relationship started to fall apart because of secrets and lies and rumors. I even had a girl contacting me saying that she was dating my fiancé and to stay away! I don't take stress well and my grades were falling because of it. Eventually I had some suspicions cause he had a myspace page that I was blocke out of, I thought if I was engaged to him that there would be nothing to hide, right? But he still kept it hidden from me so I made up a fake name and everything and he accepted me as a friend but he started saying things like he was single and since he's a twin and his twin sometimes has a habit to get online and act like him so I even asked if both twins were single and I was told yes he even wanted to meet me but I didn't do it cause I didn't have the gutts to. I confronted him on it and him and his twin came up with two different stories. So that night I dumped him. But lately I've also had some feelings for my best friend but he doesn't seem to feel the complete same way. I'm trying to figure every thing out and make a dicision but its so hard especially since I've broken up with my ex fiancé he's been spending time with the sister of the girl that kept contacting me saying that he's hers and going to partys that she's attending. When I broke up with him I had a huge lack of trust with him but I told him if he could sever all ties with the girl that casused so much troble for my relationship and acctually got him jumped afterwards and prove it and I had my own ways of knowing. But you would think after a 2 1/2 yea relationship and him proposing to me and me being the love of his life that he would do anything to get me back right? Then how come he says ooo well I'm going to be the bigger person and not hold a grudge against her even when she helped rewin my relationship and hurt him. I'm so confused and I'm having slight feelings for that other guy. The other guy makes me laugh even when I'm really down and he's always there for me we have some things in common and he's my best friend am I pushing it with maybe wanting a relationship with my best friend or should I go back to the love of my life and try to work things out? Just help please

[lmangileri]

Whatever you do, don't go back with the guy that you were engaged to. I was with a guy for almost 4 years, engaged to him for almost 3 of those years and we broke up. You live and learn. Just be glad you weren't married yet to complicate things even more. As far as your friend goes, if he doesn't feel the same way that you do then you've talked to him about this already? If so and he doesn't want a relationship then there's not a lot you can do. I would suggest getting out and meeting new people. =)