[Awate]

Hi,

This is the first time I use internet to express my feelings, I came to a point when I really need to talk and to be listened to. I think I have mental issues that prevent me from succeeding in life. I feel totally useless and undesirable. Even if people often tell me that I am smart and seem confident, deeply inside of me I think I am stupid and I hate myself. I don't know if it's a depression or some other kind of mental illness, but I really need to get rid of those bad feelings because it cripples me in my everyday life.
It is been like that for years and it's getting worse, I'm afraid to talk to people because I don't want them to realize how uninteresting I am. I find it hard to fall asleep and to eat normally. I don't think anybody can love me because I think I don't deserve it. I have such a bad image of myself, and actually writing this message makes me feel even worse. But, I am couscious that the way I feel about myself is wrong and that I need to fix it. The problem is I can't do it by myself. Can somebody help me?

[Choux]

Getting in a 12 Step Program will help you so much! They were originally started by an alcoholic named Bill who devised a program helpful to those trying to overcome a problem, in his case alcohol drinking.

There are many kinds of 12 Step Programs out there... hopefully you can find one suited to your emotional situation and how you have been damaged. There is wonderful fellowship in 12 Step Groups, but most importantly, a great place to learn about your real self, and then grow.

Best wishes,