Originally Posted by
Altenweg
Of course not, but I can't receive communion, it's not allowed, I've never received communion in a Catholic church. Still the old feelings, the feeling of not being accepted, not fitting in.
It was a relief when the service was over.
I find it strange that even after all this time the church can still bring back all the negative feelings I had as a child. I know it was my imagination, but while we were there today, I felt like every eye was on me and that they were all secretly saying "you don't belong, get out". But I knew all the words, knew all the motions, but no matter what I still don't belong.