I'm sort of new to actual dating... I went out with a few guys in school.. but the relationship really never left school. Once I graduated I fell in love with a guy from australia... was with him for 2 years... and went to see him for 6 months... I waited patiently for 2 years (until three weeks ago) for him to commit...
My sister had been friends with eric... eric is a firemen/emt. It was about three weeks ago that we had our state fair... and he participated in a mock disaster... he made the newspaper and I told my sister to tell him he looked pretty cute in his uniform...
Well that started it all... We began texting that night and for the next few days. We text non stop all day long. I met him face to face on a Friday... and then he asked me out on a date Monday. I was with him until 3am.. course most of the time we went to the firehouse... where he normally hangs out. All of the guys knew me by my oldest brother who use to work there.
I was with eric for the four days he was off... and it was amazing. Every night on my drive home I'd thank him for the dinner and a nice time.. and he would say you're welcome and then at first he started to tell me I like you... then it became I really like you... then it was a I really like you a lot... I knew he would take on other jobs with other firehouses when they were short handed and needed his help.
Usually with his line of work.. they would work four days and then have four days off... at first I could tell he was really falling for me... right off the bat before we met... we discussed marriage and kids... I knew and have always known what I want out of life...
Its always been apparent to me... I wasn't really expecting to go out with someone I was so contect in waiting for a guy I really loved... and I never expected to fall for him either... but I didn't want to get myself into something like the last one... I went through a rough time.. and it hurt me more then I can ever express..
I told him I didn't want him to carry the burdens that someone else caused... I merely wanted him to be aware.. he didn't mind at all.. he told me he was ready to settle down and told me how many kids he wanted and the names etc... I kept asking him if I scared him off.. he said no.. that I couldn't.. which I was amazed...
He would always tell me how pretty I was.. how good I smelled and my smile that he adored.. and thought I was pretty awesome and fun to hang out with... and most of all I accepted his job... he learned from the very first date that if I was with him.. and that fire whistle went off...
I was fine with being left behind.. while he went and saved someone's life... or... well cat in a tree.. lol... lol our first date.. he brought me back to the firehouse.. and left me there.. when they had a call.. I was still there when he came back.. and he always knows I would be.
.no matter what (course I had to blow it when I told him my keys were locked in his car.. I couldn't.. but I assured him I would have anywayz.. I thought it was awesome)
I told him once that I admired him for what he does.. and even though my family has a lot of emt's firement nurses etc... seeing him rush off... like that.. and knowing he loves what he does... I admired him...
Things started going differently.. last Friday... course there were some things in my home that were going through the drain.. it was bad... and normally if there's a guy in my life.. I want to lean to him.. thinking I would get a little comfort.. and I didn't...
He was working that day... that was one of the days that we were suppose to get together.. and have the whole day.. but a near by station called needing him. He was acting crappy that day and Saturday. I went to see him at the firehouse of where we normally hang out...
And didn't really act like he wanted to be around me... didnt seem to want to touch me which was a complete 180 from Wednesday.. when he was all over me.. and gave me our first kiss.. that was completely amazing!
So finally I have had enough.. he had been saying things that were just ignorant... and I couldn't take it anymore... so I got my things out of the rec room and was going to leave... he asked me wher ei was going.. and I said home and he said no please don't go.. so I threw everything on the firetruck..
And started to chew him out.. for how he was treating me.. and that I deserve to be treated a little bit better then that.. course a few people were around... I didn't mean to put him on the spot...
He kept saying he was sorry.. he had to cut our day short cause he agreed to bartend for a wedding there... so he was trying to go.. and he started to talk to someone... so I just started to walk out the door... I kept going.. and I drove off...
He text me while he was bartending that he was sorry.. I didn't answer him... he text me a while later saying hey... I didn't answer him... almost 6 hours after my leaving.. he ims me through messenger that went to my phone...