He's just not that into me?
I feel like I'm in high school again! I saw this guy a couple of months ago and was immediately head over heels. I had never felt that way about someone I didn't know. I had never even spoken to him but saw him occasionally around campus. We always made eye contact and exchanged a few smiles. At this point all I knew about him was that he was a great student, very active in the community, and gorgeous! After a month of no talking and continuous starring, we typically became friends on Facebook. He seemed to be very chatty with everyone else, but couldn't even say anything to me on freaking Facebook.
The other day, he told one of my friends he was having a party and was welcome to bring friends. I went thinking maybe he wanted to see me. Once there, we starred (of course) and finally started to talk! He actually knew my name. I asked him a few questions, but it didn't really spark a conversation. Though I am really shy I kept trying to keep up the chatting. It got a little awkward, so he got up to "regulate" the party. He looked at me a few more times that night, but that was it.
I tried becoming friends with him, and have given him many chances as I am very open, but nothing has come of it. He's not shy but can't talk to me. I don't get it. I feel like I should just let this one go because maybe I'm reading him wrong and he is just not into me.
I'm in love with my best friend.but how to tell him.
The facts: We are both college freshman living on the same floor of our dorm. We are pretty much polar opposites. He's a class clown type, being utterly ridiculous to get attention, but still very intelligent. I'm pretty well reserved and am what would be called the "nice girl". But since day one we've been like two peas in a pod. He annoys the out of me sometimes, and he thinks I'm a raging . Still, we are with each other everyday, having a great time.
The problem: I love him. I think I have for a while and just couldn't come to that self realization. Our friends have made comments about us and have told me a million times that he is in love with me, but I just couldn't see it. It wasn't until just recently I realized that, yeah, maybe he does have feelings for me; he looks at me in a way you don't look at a regular friend. He's so good to me even though I may take it for granted sometimes. And he is by far the greatest friend I have ever had.
He left three days ago. School is ending and it's time for summer vacation. We don't live together anymore and aren't going to see each other everyday. Our home towns aren't close to each other. These were the things I was thinking when he gave me a tight hug goodbye. After that he left very quickly, I think maybe to not make it so hard. I surprised myself by getting very emotional. Two minutes later he came back into my room and gave me another hug, then left for good. That was all it took to make me start crying. That was when I finally admitted to myself that I loved him.
I'm not sure how to tell him I love him, or if I even should. I always thought he would do it first. We never really communicated through technology, and now that's all that happens, it's very weird. Should I tell him? How in the heck do I even do that?!