Originally Posted by
Alty
I don't know how to answer this.
Is it your fault that you don't trust him? Well, trust is earned. If he didn't earn it, then why should you trust him? But, I don't know you well enough to determine if you're just a jealous person, have trust issues, see deception in everyone. Most of the people I've met that don't trust their partner, have trust issues, and their partner isn't to blame at all. So I really can't tell you if it's your fault or not.
Let me put it this way. If he isn't trustworthy, then no, it's not your fault that you don't trust him. If you don't trust him because you have issues with trust, then yes, it's your fault that you don't trust him. I don't know you well enough to tell you which category you fit into.
Either way, this is not a healthy relationship. He makes you cry, he doesn't communicate with you, when things get tough or you try to communicate, he walks away and ignores you. That's not a relationship that has any hope of growing and thriving.
You really are better of without him.