I don't feel good enough for him!
I'm really self-conscious about myself and my boyfriend's past isn't helping at all! I've been with my boyfriend a year now and currently live with him. The thing is, I've put on weight and it shows more because I'm really small too. I also have a lot of stretchmarks all around my breasts, which aren't a pretty sight to look at. I cut my hair short and realised it doesn't suit me and that adds on to the mess.
Reason I am asking for advice for this is because my boyfriend has posters of glamour models (he took them down to make me feel a bit better but still has them in the garage) and he still looks at other stunning girls like celebrities and glamour models and whoever has the really skinny big boobs kind of body. He used to watch porn behind my back, until I caught him so he's apparently stopped, but the thing is, he wasn't watching sex porn, he was watching videos with titles such as 'sexy tattooed slut fingering herself' and other ones of just really stunning girls rubbing themselves, yet he told me he got turned on by the actions involved, not the girl :S ? Confused.
I don't want you to dislike my boyfriend completely because he does reassure me that he loves everything about me and tries to make me feel better, he just gives off the impression he wants to glamour model or slut!
Another BIG insecurity has appeared because I found out almost everyone who he's slept with or been with and most are complete Slags, although they are the skinny, big boobed person as per!
I just don't know whether to leave my boyfriend about this :/ I love him to bits but I'm also afraid he'll get someone really pretty after me, which will just make me want to cut off my own skin (I'm not psycho, that's just an extreme idea of my feelings lol)!
I'm just soooooo down on myself! I feel like I need to become a really skinny slut to make his eyes pop out of his head! I just want to be normal again, this has become too much, it's even made me want to kill myself before!
Please help me, I'm trapped and need advice :'(
Hotmail webcam girls on boyfriend's account?
I don't know what to think or do!
My boyfriend stopped watching porn ages ago because he knew how much it was hurting me.
We've been together a year and live together.
Even though I don't do this, he knows I'm very good at computers/hacking etc so if he deleted his history, he knew I could get it back if I wanted.
Recently, I noticed two 'cam girls' added to his hotmail account. One called Jess Smith and the other called Horny B****. I asked him who they were and he said they were just spam viruses (you do get a lot on hotmail sometimes) and that he never added them. They weren't viruses though, but real people paid to turn guys on by webcam. A big argument happened the day I asked him about it. Anyway, I forgot about this until the other day when his old hotmail from nearly a year ago was reactivated and these same girls were on that account and he admitted that when he was single years ago, him and his friends used to add people like that just for the laugh.
What caught my attention was that in a moment of anger, I retrieved his deleted recent adds and it said that 'attempts to add Jess Smith' and showed he'd tried to add her or she'd tried to add him 6 times!
I'm confused! He doesn't use his hotmail for chatting to friends but just business. He has me and his guy friend on there now, just the two of us, but about a month ago now it showed these two girls on his friends list.
I go to bed early for college whilst he stays up late playing on World of Warcraft and whenever I sneak downstairs, he's on World of Warcraft so I'm confused because he's not doing anything wrong whenever I sneak down. I've tried talking to him countless times about these girls but it always ends up in an argument about me not trusting him and snooping.
What should I think? He hasn't had any girls on his hotmail after he deleted them.
Did he cheat on me or not?
You probably should also read my other questions for a bit more detail about our relationship, e.g. how long we've been together etc.
We were still together but I stayed at my Aunts for 6 days to give us a little breather, and I recently found out that he was talking to this other girl behind my back but only friendly talk, no flirting.
Anyway, I found out most things about this, so I'll list them in order now;
1. She said to him through text that she wanted to sleep with him and he apparently replied 'thanks' with no flirting
2. So he sent her a picture of his privates and she replied 'nice!'
3. I later found that on the same day he commented on pictures of her bending over and with her breasts hanging out on Facebook and when I confronted him, he said it's because she looked pretty in the and didn't comment because of the breasts/***
4. They hadn't even met before, so they decided to meet up at the end of his road and take her back to his as she didn't know where he lived.
5. He told me when he met her he thought she was ugly and looked nothing like her pictures, and that's all he said
6. They're both adamant telling me that all they did was watch a film and then he hugged her goodbye and paid for her taxi home, when I confronted them both.
I'm leaving him because of this, I mean, I you have time, read my other question 'did he cheat' and see what else he did within the week. Should I stay? Or should I go?
I really want your opinion on what you think REALLY happened, thank you :)