Over 4 month and its still not gone
Well I wrote on here back in June / July. My ex had broken up with me leaving me heart broken and depressed. I had been looking for a flat however the break up meant that I was unable to afford the flat and have not got another person to share with. I also started a job which I found out was not for me. Anyway I am now training in another course and am staying at home until I have enough to move out on my own.
Anyway my problem is not this as I can deal with being unhappy at both home and at work. My problem is that I decided that I would move on and not bother with my ex. Well that's easier said than done. I miss him terribly. It is now nearly 5 months and I am still not over him. My feelings are all still there for him even though he has a girlfriend and has told me he wants nothing to do with me. This hurts more than ever. I know a lot of you think that because I am 18 I know nothing about relationships and need to grow up etc.
Well that isn't what its like and it isn't helping me. I took on what everyone said but it is still not helping me to move on.
I miss him so much. I don't know what to do. Will he ever want me back if I just leave him alone or will he just find someone else and forget about me. I know I've made a lot of mistakes with how I've done things e.g. telling him I want him back and that I miss him. Now he hates me. My life is falling apart and every aspect is going wrong. Everything from my parents divorcing, not finding a job where I can do my training, being in debt, not having friends, to losing the person that meant everything to me and having no other person interested. I feel so depressed I don't think life is worth living.
Well thanks for reading. Any help would be really appreciated. Thanks again