Originally Posted by FallenKnight
This time everything was good too, but we had a few arguments and disagreements about things, and once again was fed up with it, and left me for the second time, about 3 weeks after the first break up. Again i begged and pleaded, but that didnt get me anywhere, in turn she told me she hated me, didnt like my personality, just didnt want to be my friend, didnt want me in her life. So one day I was texting one of my good friends, and accidently texted her, (Me and my friend were talking about her, i was telling him what an idiot i was and I shouldnt have done it). A few moments later, I texted her, "Thank you for loving me, even if only for a short time" and that was that, i received a text message back from her saying "I still do." After that incident, we talked, made up and then got back on the horse for the third try, to make this relationship work. We were seperated for about a week. Now, then relationship was going good for about 2 months, again she got sick of the arguments, and then broke it off again. I begged and pleaded again..but it didnt get me anywhere, So i said to myself.. maybe it wasnt ment to be. I kept in contact with her, and we talked, we talked a lot, and in the end decided that maybe we shouldve been friends for a while until we started dating, so i agreed and we were then "friends." We hung out and such, but while we hung out i couldn't help myself, so i kept hugging her and kissing her on the cheek, flirting and saying things like "Well, were friends right? I'm not kissing you on the lips, or touching you anywhere!" A week passed and we hung out 3-4 times that week, and went to her house a few times, still "flirting" with her. One day I saw her, and we hung out, and then i had to go to my Martial arts practice, and asked if she could pick me up because I couldn't get a ride, and my car wasn't available. So she agreed. While I was at my practice, she wrote me a note. ( I didnt know that yet). She picked me up, and we went back to my place, about an hour passed and she asked if we could go take a walk, so we did.. while we were walking she sprung the note out on me, we sat down on the bench and she burried her head into her lap while I read the note. To my suprise the note said things like, she couldnt be friends, she couldn't be with out me, she wanted me back, in a way the note was asking me to be her boyfriend again. It was long and detailed, so i wont get into that. But I ended up saying Yes, and we started dating again. So... 6 months passed now and she broke the relationship off once again, it just happened this monday, and i'm pretty badly hurt, i was with her for almost a year. She broke up with me again, because she didn't like the "drama" and she was fed up with the arguments, and she also said that I "annoyed" her. One thing she said after every breakup was that "She's not coming back"... So.. when she broke up with me for the 4th time(just this monday) I begged and pleaded, wrote her poems, tried everything I could to have her back.. Now I really am afraid that this is it, and that she wont come back...but what if she does ( it doesnt seem likely.. i wish it would) should I take her back? Because I love her.. or should I not.. because i fear that she'll break my heart again for a 5th time. Is there a possibility that i'll get her back.. or am an idiot for wanting her back....I know her fears, she knows mine, I've said i loved her, she said shes loved me. We've shared our dreams, even our beds. I've seen her cry, I've seen her smile.. I've even watched her sleep for awhile.. shes touched my heart, and my soul.