This is my story...
Its been a week since we broke up.weve been out dating, having fun and sex for 4 years. Right now am good as dead, meaning no life. September 13 I picked her up at her school. She's 20 am 21. Were not studying at the same college. I feel something wasn't right. I asked her if there's a problem. She said she wanted sometime to think and decide for herself. She said she wamted to decide things for her own, making decisions without thinking of me.I know its just an excuse. I gave her a few days. September 16 Monday, we ate lunch together. She still have 2 hours free before her next class. But she said that she have to do her assignments for that class, so I let her go. That happens the next day too. Then that night I texted her and ask what's wrong? She replied " am no longer in love with you!".. my whole world stopped for a minute.I texted her again, she didn't replied. I picked her up at their house the day after. We talked, she said that she doesn't feel any love for me anymore. It felt like my heart will explode. I asked her to give me a chance and she said yes ill give you a chance if you give me time to think. I agreed. I can't sleep that time, I was asking myself why and what went wrong. Then she texted me and said she'll meet me after her class. She said OK ill give you a chance untillthe last day of this semester. That'll be on October 18. I said that was short! The she said "if you dont want it then this is goodbye!"... I have no other options but to agree... after that day I was about to show her how I really feel, I want to comfort her to and give the necklace she wanted. But she refuse to open up.I want to hold her hands but she doesn't want to. I tried to embrace her but she pushed me away.then I tell her. You gave me a chance and now that am trying to comfort you... blah blah blah... she said I gave you a chance to let you know that you don't deserve a chance! That's weird. That really broke my heart. She gave me a chance of no chance?! Then the next day I sit down beside her and talked. I asked her what really is the reason. She said that I was too tight that she can't breathe no more. She said "i want to do things that I want, I want to be free. She misinterpreted me. I banned her from drinking and smoking because her mom sont want it for her. I told her to limit being friends with her other school mates because they were a part of a bad frat at their school.I did those to protect her. Is that wrong? Tell me guys! I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose her. She all that I have. Please guys I need your help. I can't picture myself moving on. I don't know what to do. Am depressed. I even cut my wrist a few days ago. Luckily my uncle saw me before I run out of blood. Am desperate. I don't know what went wrong. Am I that tight? I tried to explain all those thing to her. That I only did it because I care. Is that wrong? I entered college just for her! Ill be graduating next semester. Am doing my thesis, but I don't know if I still can go on. I can't think right! Her mom trust me a lot. Been crying till now! I can't sleep well. I can't stop thinking of her. I even thought that she might be under the influence of her friends. Most of her friends were guys, they have their gfs but they're cheating them. So how can I trust those friends of her. What if those guys abused her while under the unfluence of alcohol? can't help to think negative things! Am not seeing her till now because she don't want to. Each time I try to pick her up at their school, she always pushed me back and shout at me. Saying she doesn't love me and that I don't have a chance to win her back... I don't know what to do... please I need help... I want her back... please!! Should I keep on fithing or just hold off for awhile... I need help ASAP...

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I want her back... please!! Should I keep on figthing or just hold off for awhile... I need help ASAP...

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You've come to the right place, but your not going to like what you hear. She was quite clear and adament as to what she is feeling and what she wants and the only thing for you to do is accept that this is really over and there is no looking back, as she is moving on and you must do the same. I know it's a shock to your system, but you must leave her alone and work on yourself. Click on the links in my signature, for some good insights.

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please I need help...

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Get some help for yourself fast, as cutting your wrist because of a break up, indicates a lot of other issues you need to deal with, and should ASAP.

Very hard to cope mate but the best thing you can do is ignore her and get healthy yourself

Gee! Am crying from what I have you posted. I never expected this to happen. I love her. We've been together most of our free time. I showed her everything. I can't sleep and eat that much. I feel so sorry for myself. Is there a way to win her back. I've been to a break up before but its not like this. Am planning to talk to her sometime this week. I don't know if its right. I haven't called or texted her since. I don't want other guysto be by her side right now, I know am being selfish. But that's how I feel. My mind says to just leave her but my heart keeps on saying "GO FIGHT FOR IT"... I really don't know what to do... I check her later this morning but no ones at their house... can't help to think of what she's doing right now.. it really hurts.. as if we didn't share some memories... as if I didn't become a part of her life... can't she feel anything?? will she miss me?? how can I get and win her back! I don't know if I can accept it... its too hard for me... can't help but cry... its getting harder and harder to breathe.shes all that is left for me.am begging you guys.how?

Hi Overdozed
I'm really sorry for your pain , believe me there are a lot of people all over the world feeling exactly as you are at the moment. I know that doesn't make it any easier :( And there are a lot of people on here including myself who have gone through the pain and survived it. Learn from all of our experiences and I know its something you don't want to hear unfortunately that's the way it is. Come on here and vent whenever you need to because there are some really good people on here who can help you get through it , AND YOU WILL! Anyway what you must do at the moment is leave her alone , that is the only way if any that you can get her back. And I'm not saying she will come back but if you keep pursuing her now she never will sorry. At the moment every time you try to contact her she will pull away that little bit more. The more you push the more she will pull away. So for now you will need to leave her alone , NC (no contact) and that way you will start to heal for YOU! It won't be easy and it won't happen overnight , but you won't start to heal until you at least make an effort to help yourself. We will all be here to talk to you.

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this is my story...
its been a week since we broke up.weve been out dating, having fun and sex for 4 years. right now am good as dead, meaning no life.

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You have a life it’s just not running on all cylinders at this particular moment. But the last thing you should be doing is short changing yourself. Now more then ever you must start thinking about good things in your life and challenge yourself to find them, even when your feeling depressed.

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we talked, she said that she doesnt feel any love for me anymore. it felt like my heart will explode. i asked her to give me a chance

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This was a big mistake. You’ve given her 4 years. You have nothing….absolutely nothing to prove to her.

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and she said yes ill give you a chance if you give me time to think. i agreed.

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Why does she need time to think? Luckily I know the answer. She wants to keep you around in case something goes wrong in her new life. You have already expressed to her that you’ll be available. By doing that you have told her that you will become her back up plan.

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i can't sleep that time, i was asking myself why and what went wrong. then she texted me and said she'll meet me after her class. she said ok ill give you a chance untillthe last day of this semester. that'll be on october 18. i said that was short! the she said "if you dont want it then this is goodbye!"...i have no other options but to agree...

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I disagree with you. You had many options available to you. Now I realize you were thinking emotionally and not thinking this through but I think you should have said one of two things.

1. “I’ve given you four years and that’s more then enough time to prove myself. If you aren’t happy with my loyalty, companionship, compassion, understanding, and love after that time then I deserve a break from you.” That would have turned the tables right back on her and it would have been the truth.

2. The other option would be to say something like “I don’t think a couple of weeks is enough time to show you that I’ve changed and I think by offering me such a small time frame after all that I’ve given you is insulting so I will have to decline the offer.” Again, you would have turned the tables and she would not be expecting it. You would have stood up to her in a polite way, yet been aggressive about your stance and it would show her that you are stronger then she gives you credit for.

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after that day i was about to show her how i really feel, i want to comfort her to and give the necklace she wanted. but she refuse to open up.i want to hold her hands but she doesnt want to. i tried to embrace her but she pushed me away.then i tell her. you gave me a chance and now that am trying to comfort you...blah blah blah...she said i gave you a chance to let you know that you dont deserve a chance! thats wierd.

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It’s not so much weird as it was her way of letting herself down. While extremely cruel to a man who devoted himself to her, to her it’s a way to build a wall. It’s incredibly rude, childish, and insulting. I have very little respect for her behavior given what you were attempting to do and given that you’ve offered almost half a decade to her. I hope you can see that disrespect as well and maybe use some of it as leverage to finally see what a bottom feeder she really is.

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that really broke my heart. she gave me a chance of no chance?!. then the next day i sit down beside her and talked. i asked her what really is the reason. she said that i was too tight that she can't breathe no more. she said "i want to do things that i want, i want to be free. she misinterpreted me.

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Wrong. You misinterpreted her. No matter how bad something is for someone the more you tell them they can’t, the more they are going to try it. Who are you to ban her from anything?

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i banned her from drinking and smoking coz her mom sont want it for her.

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I’m not sure where you are from but I’m in the United States where the drinking laws state that you can not drink until you are 21. Do you know what many teenagers do? Drink alcohol. And why, because they are being told not to. I’m sorry but you come off as momma’s boy when you tell your girlfriend that she can’t drink because her mama said so. I’m not a big drinker but I guarantee that if my girlfriend was nagging me not to drink, I’d start doing it.

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i told her to limit being friends with her other school mates coz they were a part of a bad frat at their school.i did those to protect her. is that wrong? tell me guys!

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Yes that is wrong. I’ll go so far as to say that you did it to protect yourself, not her. You didn’t trust her enough to make her own friends and make her own mistakes.

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i dont know what to do. i dont want to lose her. she all that i have.

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She is not all that you have. Start focusing on other things that you do have. Hell you have access to the internet and there are some people on this planet that have no idea what a computer is. If you if start focusing on what you do have you’re outlook on life will start to improve.

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please guys i need your help. i can't picture myself moving on.

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In other words, you refuse to picture yourself moving on. You certainly can do it.

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i dunno what to do. am depressed. i even cut my wrist a few days ago. luckily my uncle saw me before i run out of blood. am desperate.

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Trust me if you don’t take anything else away from this, trust me on this. There is no woman……not one, not a single woman on the face of this planet to be killing yourself for. That certainly includes some skank who is callus enough to tell you to prove yourself after 4 years.

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i dunno what went wrong. am i that tight?! i tried to explain all those thing to her. that i only did it coz i care. is that wrong?

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I don’t doubt that you did those things because you care. I almost get the feeling you care too much. By that I mean you got so wrapped up in “us” that you forgot “me.” You put the couple ahead of yourself and you should never do that. You always come first.
You also can’t protect people to the point of being their guardian. You have to let people make mistakes on there own. In fact you can’t grow as a person if you don’t make your own mistakes.

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! i entered college just for her! ill be graduating next semester. am doing my thesis, but i dont know if i still can go on. i can't think right! her mom trust me a lot. been crying till now! i can't sleep well.

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Start exercising. If you can wear yourself out so that you will start sleeping longer.

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i can't stop thinking of her. i even thought that she might be under the influence of her friends. most of her friends were guys, they have their gfs but theyre cheating them. so how can i trust those friends of her. what if those guys abused her while under the unfluence of alchohol?

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What if they did? I don’t believe it for a second but let’s just say they did. What are you going to do about it? Call the police and report a crime you have no proof of on a victim that has no idea what your talking about against people who may or may not even know you? Hopefully that sounds as stupid as what your attempting to get across here.
Nobody abused her, she dumped you and now your grasping at straws to rationalize it.

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!cant help to think negative things! am not seeing her till now coz she dont want to.

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Then that’s her choice. Let her live with it.

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each time i try to pick her up at their school, she always pushed me back and shout at me. saying she doesnt love me and that i dont have a chance to win her back...

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Dude, I know your in serious emotional stress so please understand I’m not knocking you, but that comes off like a stalker. I’m not going to BS you and say I haven’t chased the person that dumped me in the past but for YOUR mental and emotional well being you have stop seeing her, talking to her, and contacting her. She’s over it, so now you have to work on yourself and get back to a better position where you can see this situation with some logic and not clouded in emotion.

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i dont know what to do... please i need help... i want her back...please!!! should i keep on fithing or just hold off for awhile...i need help ASAP...

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Actually you need to stop and take a deep breathe. What you feeling is loss but you are not accepting it which is driving you to act out in a desperate way. Now you can get plenty of help and this board is filled with similar situations like yours and people that can offer you some great advice but you have to be ready to TAKE THE ADVICE! The advice at this time, for YOUR mental and emotional health is to quit contacting her at any time. You must for your own sanity start to rebuild your life. You must become stronger then you were and are now.

Thanks guys! You really knew a lot... I know am still young... am just 21... but experienced a lot of tragic things. My problem now is. Each time I try to focus, I cant. Everything reminds me of him.should I go and talk to her for one last time or just let it be. The last time I text her and asked if she wants to talk about it and clear things up. She she said "! i dont love you anymore!".. why is she like that? I don't want her friends to lead her stray. Because from what I know and see, those male friends of her were bad influences. I really care a lot for her. Guys!. I dreamed of being a 3d model/animator someday... ill be graduating this march.. guys! If ever I caught my dreams come true, will she ever come back to me... can't stop to cry.its not a man thing to do but I can't help it... shes all that I've got... hope she feels something too.hope she'll miss me... but I can't seem to see any hard or negative emotions from him... geee! Why do it have to end this way...

Am sorry...
Will you guys permit me to talk to her for 1 last time?

Its hard to just ignore the person I love...
Now ill be going home alone, eat alone, do things alone...
Can I just talk to her 1 last time and tell her...

"OK i guess i deserve this break up after all that ive done."
"If there will be a chance to meet you again in the near future."
"Will you still give me a chance to prove to you my love?"
"Ill do things on my own as you do things on your own."
"I want you to know that ill always love you."
"Cherish those moments we have."
"Ill be back."
"Ill graduate and work hard for you."
"I want you to open your heart for me when that day comes."


But what if that day comes and she have a new partner?
Can't accept it... am totally deeply madlly in love with this girl...
Gee!

So its me who made the wrong move from the very start?.
Its my fault??


Need more comments...
Please!


Thanks guys...
Can't help but cry...

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thanks guys! you really knew a lot...i know am still young...am just 21...but experienced a lot of tragic things. my problem now is. each time i try to focus, i cant. everything reminds me of him.should i go and talk to her for one last time or just let it be. the last time i text her and asked if she wants to talk about it and clear things up. she she said "! i dont love you anymore!"..why is she like that?! i dont want her friends to lead her stray. coz from what i know and see, those male friends of her were bad influences. i really care a lot for her. guys!.... i dreamed of being a 3d model/animator someday...ill be graduating this march..guys! if ever i caught my dreams come true, will she ever come back to me...cant stop to cry.its not a man thing to do but i can't help it...shes all that ive got...hope she feels something too.hope she'll miss me...but i can't seem to see any hard or negative emotions from him...geee! why do it have to end this way.....

am sorry...
will you guys permit me to talk to her for 1 last time??

its hard to just ignore the person i love...
now ill be going home alone, eat alone, do things alone....
can i just talk to her 1 last time and tell her.....

"OK i guess i deserve this break up after all that ive done."
"If there will be a chance to meet you again in the near future."
"Will you still give me a chance to prove to you my love?"
"Ill do things on my own as you do things on your own."
"I want you to know that ill always love you."
"Cherish those moments we have."
"Ill be back."
"Ill graduate and work hard for you."
"I want you to open your heart for me when that day comes."


but what if that day comes and she have a new partner?!
cant accept it....am totally deeply madlly in love with this girl.....
gee!

so its me who made the wrong move from the very start?..
its my fault??!


need more comments.....
please!!


thanks guys...
cant help but cry.....

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Dude, I'm sorry I just don't have time to go through and break this down but you have got to QUIT talking to her. None of that emotional stuff is going to help. Furthermore, while you may not have been perfect neither was she so quit painting this picture that you screwed up entirely while this supposed precious angel did nothing wrong. You offered her more then both she and yourself give you credit for. Were you perfect. No. Am I perfect. No. But I'll tell you something both of us have in common with each other that she doesn't have. That's class. I know you wouldn't just toss someone to the curb after 4 years and then be so cruel as to say "Ah I'm feeling charitable you got a couple weeks to win me back." F her. You're here and your reaching out and others and myself will try and guide you through this but you have... YOU MUST take the advice from those that have been in your shoes. You're the not the first guy to ever get dumped, believe it or not I have even been dumped. I can't believe it either. Who in there right mind would let me go. Then again that supposes that I date girls in their right mind. But seriously, the point is that your not the first person to experience this kind of loss and your not the first person to do desperate things in an attempt to get her back. But this is not about her anymore. This is about you. This about YOUR life and you making decisions that benefit you. Decision number one is to quit talking to her in any capacity. None.

What he said ^

Ditto... what Chuff said!!

Could not spread the love and give Chuff the greenies he deserves but he is correct! Absolutely!

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she said OK ill give you a chance untillthe last day of this semester.

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This is a dealbreaker and when you hear this from the female you love... ITS OVER and time to move on!!

Agreed
What Chuff said!

Well Overdozed, not only do you see the compliments but you'll notice they are all in agreement. The reason I point this out is because you are tempted to do the exact opposite of everything I said. Your road to recovery begins by either facing the reality of what those of us with no emotional attachment with experience in your situation or by acting out in a desperate way which will only make you feel worse. I won't lie to you, where you are at sucks, but I also let you know that if you just give yourself some time and learn to trust the decision your making you will see that everybody was right and eventually you will be happy that you took the that road to a better life where you can live for yourself without being told how to act with in a time frame.

It sounds like she wants some space from the relationship. The best thing to do is leave her alone and if she Loves you she will come back. Stay away from her and where she goes if possible. I know it hurts and you are feeling terrible right now. You can't make anyone love you. The hurt will go away with time. You need to be around people who can support you and help you get through this. You may need to see your doctor and let him or her know what's going on and how you are feeling. Give it some time guy... you will get through it.

Thanks guys... after my last yesterday... I decided to go to a bar... I saw some of my batchmate... old friends... they asked me to stay with them, drink... theyasked me why am I sobering. I told them my story.after 2 hours. I met a girl at that same spot. The girl new me but she totally stranger to me. My old friends told the girl my story. Gee! I wasn't drunk yet, but I just found her hands holding mine. I can't seem to realize it. I don't know when did her hand touches mine.

I went out that night to think. To decide for my own self. Trying to slowly understand what you posted and commented on my life story. I went their to have some time for myself to know myself better.

The girl and I talked for about two and a half hour. It seems that she knew me very well. I didn't let my guard down. She talked to me tenderly. Making me realize things. And it turns out that she was a 1st year student at my school, we are at the same department. I really didn't know.

Each time she rubbs my hand I feel comfortable. Then she started leaning her head on my shoulder. Then she suddenly asked me."am i attractive?" I said "i dont know." then she let go of my hand. I continued drinking, then a few minutes later she asked me again "am i atractive?" I replied "YES??"... then she added, "am i appealing?" I said. "may be.yes?" she smiled.after that she again grabbedmy hand. Playing it. Every time I let go of her hand she always try to hold it again, play it again. All I did was to listen to what she's saying.

After that I went to the bathroom. Am not vomiting of anything, I tried to think. I asked myself questions. Then I realize that I was smiling again. It was that time that I felt comfort, happiness. I even said to myself, "why did i not do these things back then?". "why did i dedicate too much time for my ex?" I can't find the answer... all I know is that am am happy. Not just that time because, after those weeks of no sleep. I slept more than 6 hours. I also woke up smiling. I don't know why? Is this just an after effect?I walked her home that night and thanked her.

Gee!
I also have lots of sketches of my ex... am planning to give those to her... what do you think? Should I give it to her... to keep it as a remembrance? I still haven't contacted or texted my ex.. am following exactly as what you guys told me... even if it really hurts...
Thanks guys!

I really appreciated those advices... all of you guys who commented and gave the advice...
Gee!but I stll feel the pain... right now am asking myself... "do i really deserve her?"... what do you think?

I think in time you will be sick and tired, of being sick and tired, and you will get a life that makes you happy, and move on like the rest of us have done. Matter of time.

Sorry for your pain. So many people here have been through breakup trauma. There is great advice being offered to you on the previous posts, try and use it to your benefit. Sooo much cheaper than a therapist, and available at all hours! You need to take care of yourself, and stop measuring your value as one half of a couple. It is hard enough to stay the course of a life plan on your own, much less try to make someone else do the same. She is going to mess up if that is what she wants to do. Cetainly at age 20 she knows right from wrong. She is not an innocent baby thtat needs to be led by the hand. Consider yourself lucky to have this end before you were further invested in this person She has made a choice . You can choose to graduate, make a good living for yourself.Good luck in the future when you meet the girl who wants the same things you do.

This is simple really. You aren't a couple unless you BOTH want to be, this isn't the case.

I don't care if you want to lose her or not, you already did, she made that choice. Its not yours to make or not.

Move on... and keep in mind if she says get lost and you don't you are officially a stalker, and there are laws against stalking.

Sometimes its harsh to say, but grow a set of balls, consider this chapter of your life closed and move on to the next one.

Yeah its going to hurt... thats life, it builds character. What separates winners from losers is how they handle adversity. A winner takes losses in stride, learns from those mistakes and moves on to the next opportunity. A loser cries in his or her Wheaties.

You have me worried with the whole attempted suicide. I think that you really depended on her for your happiness and made her your whole world.

You really need to seek some counseling. No one... and I mean... NO ONE... is worth killing yourself over.

You have a precious life that someday you can share with someone. But you can't count on someone to make your life happy for you. Its your duty to make your life mean something. To have purpose. To be happy.

What you need to do more than ever is focus on you.

Thanks guys... stay calm and focus... decide on things that'll make me happy... ill just wait...

Guys what if sometime these following days ill encounter her while walking home or something. What will I do? Should I talk to her?

Anymore advice...
I woke up this morning and felt the sting of our break up...
Thanks guys!.

You don't have to ignore her, just don't give her the extra attention you normally would. Say hello in passing, but keep walking. I promise it'll get easier once you take the time to take care of YOU. You are the only one that is looking out for your best interest.

<3 Leslie

Thanks...
The thing is... I don't know if I can handle seeing her with another guy... gee... her tried to call me last night... I didn't answer the phone... am trying so hard not to think of her... am giving myself much work to keep me busy... but still... geee! I know I can overcome this... but I don't know when... gee.. I totally messed up...
*sobs*

What if she saw with this flirty girl I told you about... will it hurt her?? Am not rebounding or anything...
I just don't want to hurt her even if she did hurt me...

Geee

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thanks....
the thing is.....i dunno if i can handle seeing her with another guy....gee......her tried to call me last night....i didnt answer the phone....am trying so hard not to think of her....am giving myself much work to keep me busy.....but still......geee! i know i can overcome this.....but i dont know when.....gee..i totaly messed up...
*sobs*

what if she saw with this flirty girl i told you about.....will it hurt her??? am not rebounding or anything....
i just dont want to hurt her even if she did hurt me...

geee

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You are on the right track... keep it up and you will find it bothers you less and less. Its going to hurt at first but soon you will feel that decrease more and more. In a few months of keeping her out of mind you will wonder what you made all the fuss about.

Thanks exactly what am feeling... but still I have some regrets...
Gee!

Am meeting lots of new faces now... what'll I do if I ever encounter her? What should I say? Or things like that? Help... I still have some stuffs at her house... shall I go and get those?

Gee!

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thanks....
the thing is.....i dunno if i can handle seeing her with another guy....gee......

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You mean you wouldn't feel sorry for that guy? I sure would knowing he's dating a callous, crude, bottom feeding skank who's idea of charity is to do nothing for anybody but herself.

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her tried to call me last night....i didnt answer the phone....am trying so hard not to think of her....am giving myself much work to keep me busy.....but still......geee! i know i can overcome this.....but i dont know when.....gee..i totaly messed up...
*sobs*

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And again I shall point out that you are blaming this entirely on yourself and giving her a free ride when she's done nothing but be a complete b*tch to you. Again I say F her. She gave you two weeks after you gave her 4 years and she then has the nerve to call that charity. I hate this woman and I've never even met her. While you may not be perfect, you did not, in any way mess this up. That's her fault and she knows it... in fact everybody here knows it, the only one that doesn't is you. So I'm letting you in on it. You were not the problem here. Now, not in next month or next year or in 20 years but right now is the time to start placing blame where it goes and I congradulate you because you are not to blame for this.

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what if she saw with this flirty girl i told you about.....will it hurt her??? am not rebounding or anything....

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I can only hope.

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i just dont want to hurt her even if she did hurt me...

geee

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Dude, if she just dumped you I'd say that's her choice but she purposely dumped you then led you on then was cold to you, and then tried to get things from you. She didn't try to hurt you, she tried to emotionally and finacially clean you out. I'm telling you, this is not the angel you believe she is. Now I'm all about taking the high road which you have obviously chosen to do, but don't you confuse that with emotional self defense. You should not want to hurt her because you don't want to be near her, not because it's the right thing to do. She didn't break up with you in a respectful and dignified manner so you don't owe her jack. Remember this is about you, she gave up the right to be cared about so that's her problem now, not yours.

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thanks exactly what am feeling......but still i have some regrets........
gee!

am meeting lots of new faces now... what'll i do if i ever encounter her? what should i say? or things like that?? help..........i still have some stuffs at her house.......shall i go and get those??

gee!

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Get your stuff if it has any value to you, but other than that don't give her any more attention that you would give anyone you don't know. If she says hi, you say hi then move on. Take the moral High road and be nice... but don't give her more attention than anyone else would get.

Its been three days since I last visited this site... I focused on our thesis defense... my instructors approved it... am glad... right now am not feeling that same sting, pain as before... is that a sign that I moved on?

Am really thankful to all of you guys... you really nailed it... again, her mom called last night. I didn't answer the phone, again...

Am having fun with this girl I met at that bar... we were going out after our class.. get a drink or just eat... I don't know, but right now I feel so numb... I just don't know...

Have I really moved on?is this a sign of a brighter future? All that matters now is me and what will I be in the next month or years... gee! Hope she won't go stray...

I kept her pictures, our pictures, her sketches on my drawing book, deleted her pics on my PC... removed her contact number, what else...

Gee! Am really thankful to you guys!
A toast to all of us... ill be here asking some other questions guys... hope you'll stay and answer those... youve given me a place... gee!

Thanks to all of you...
*sobs*

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its been three days since i last visited this site....i focused on our thesis defense...my instructors approved it...am glad....right now am not feeling that same sting, pain as before...is that a sign that i moved on?

am really thankful to all of you guys...you really nailed it...again, her mom called last night. i didnt answer the phone, again...

am having fun with this gurl i met at that bar...we were going out after our class..get a drink or just eat...i dunno, but right now i feel so numb....i just dont know....

have i really moved on?is this a sign of a brighter future? all that matters now is me and what will i be in the next month or years....gee! hope she wont go stray....

i kept her pictures, our pictures, her sketches on my drawing book, deleted her pics on my PC.....removed her contact number, what else............

gee! am really thankful to you guys!
a toast to all of us....ill be here asking some other questions guys.....hope youll stay and answer those.....youve given me a place.....gee!

thanks to all of you.....
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You've made the first steps to moving on... just keep with it and soon you will wonder what you ever saw in her. Keep looking forward, and don't look back except to learn from your mistakes. Your future is ahead of you, not behind you now.

been days since my last visit here...
I dreamed of her twice the last last night... I don't know why... is that a sign that I can't still let her go? Or just a random dream... yesterday night I went home with this girl I met before my ex.gee! I courted this girl, but I didn't take it seriously... she saw me at the bus stop,waiting... she was weeping.. gee! Iasked her why, she said she and her boyfriend had a fight about a third party. The she said she wants to go home with me. Good timing, no ones home that day. When we got to my place, I offered her a cup of noodles.we sat at my room. I let her do all the talking, then she asked me of my girlfriend. I told her my story. By that time I knew she wanted to get some revenge about what her boyfriend did to her.

I wanted to have sex with her. I know she wants it too that time. I can see through her actions. But I didn't do it. I don't know why? We talked till 3:00 am... then I decided to get her another cup of noodles... as I go back, I saw her asleep... I just let her sleep... I only want her to feel comfortable...

guys... I did the right thing, right? I know how what she's feeling that time. I don't want her to do stupid things like I did, cutting my wrist... I just watched her sleep.. shes cute and sexy... hehehe! Please tell me I did the right thing...

gee! Its still hard to forget my ex...
am trying really hard...

I am so proud, and you should be too! You took the high road, and in spite of your misery and pain, helped another human in misery and pain. That's worth a lot in my book.

This morning... I woke up weeping... I don't know why... it seems that all the sting is coming back again...
Gee!it still hurts... how long will it take me to totally forget her? How long do I have to feel this?
The last thing I know is... last night... at around 1:00 am.. I dreamed of her again... woke up cried a bit.. then sleep again...

I went to the bathroom to wash things up... but I ended up crying again in the shower... I let myself cried for about 2 hours,almost... guys... at this rate, with that no contact thing... is there a chance that she'll come back? I've asked this a lot of times already... I just want to know...
Is there a small chance? Will she ever recognize my pain and sufferings?

This'll be my last week on school... so as her... remember the deadline she gave me... *laughs*
Ill be having a vacation with that girl who I conforted... she said she needed to stay away from that guy for a period... so I asked her to come... ill tell her mom later... ill be doing my favorite hobby... sketching... want to see my sketches?

Hope when I got back here... at this site... ill be able to forget her... hope I can... ill draaaaaaaw 24/7... gee! Ill help her decide for herself...

Hmmm...

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this morning...i woke up weeping.....i dunno why....it seems that all the sting is coming back again....

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Crying is an outlet for pain. I won't recommend that you do in front of a woman but cry away, it's only helping you.

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gee!it still hurts...how long will it take me to totally forget her? how long do i have to feel this?

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Have you tried thinking about anything else?

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the last thing i know is.....last night...at around 1:00 am..i dreamed of her again.....woke up cried a bit..then sleep again....

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Or as I would write that, once you were done feeling the pain you had no problems going back to sleep.

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i went to the bathroom to wash things up...but i ended up crying again in the shower.....i let my self cried for about 2 hours,almost......guys.....at this rate, with that no contact thing.......is there a chance that she'll come back? ive asked this a lot of times already......i just want to know.....
is there a small chance? will she ever recognize my pain and sufferings?

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Does she really come off as someone who gives a damn about anybody other then herself. Furthermore, you can not pain your way to anybody's heart. Women don't feel sympathy for men can't take charge in certain situations and this is one of those situations.

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this'll be my last week on school...so as her....remember the deadline she gave me....*laughs*

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I'm going to be subtle. F her deadline. How low of a human being (and I don't like being listed as in the same species as that thing you call your ex, I must admit) to demand that you change in two weeks to meet her approval. Who in the hell is she? Were you dating the Queen of England? Even she isn't worth this treatment.

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ill be having a vacation with that girl who i conforted.....she said she needed to stay away from that guy for a period of time...so i asked her to come....ill tell her mom later....ill be doin my favorite hobby....sketching....want to see my sketches?

hope when i got back here....at this site.....ill be able to forget her......hope i can.....ill draaaaaaaw 24/7.....gee! ill help her decide for herself.......

hmmm.....

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Good, you've already made plans and you've got something to look forward to. I'm not an artist but I would assume that being on is a great outlet for you to concentrate and focus on something you love. Keep doing that, and also try exercising.

Yeah the deadline thing, dude, that's that's umm as low as it gets. Cutting your wrist? Get help you're highly co dependent and a danger to yourself. You can't change people either it doesn't work. They have to change for themselves. See a therapist man and forget her.

I thought I can get through this by having this vacation thing... im with this girl...
Last night she played the song entitled when your gone by avril... after a couple of seconds I felt a pain... and I want to cry it out to... I rushed upstairs to cry but as I turn my back she grabbed my had and about to slap me, but she discontinued. Instead she said, "if you cry i cry too"... so I decided not to.. I sit right by her side feeling the sting...

I haven't finished any drawings yet because all I see in the canvaz is my ex.. dunno why... all am doing now is trying to comfort her... geee! Yesterday was suppose to be our monthsary thing.. can't help to cry that night... I saw the calendar and it's the 20th of October... glad that she was sleeping when I cried...

Thanks guys for being there for me all this time.. you really knew what to say..
Thanks...

I was just thinking... what if this girl am with right now, in this vacation is falling for me?
Because guys you know what mean... I just came from a break up and I needed time to heal... I really can feel that she falling for me... just don't know what she sees in me... right now I can say that am still having a hard time accepting the fact that its over or should I say that its hard to move on...

Gee! Feels like the sting is getting stonger each day... I still miss her... there are time when I want to grab the phone and call her... but I cant... am doing my very best... but still I end up stumbling... she became my center for 4 years... did everything that she ever wanted me to be... how can she easily forget all our memories? Why is it easy for her to forget the things I did? All I ever wanted was to make it right and look at her eyes, I still get rejected... I received a text from my ex's older sister asking me to come by there house and visit her... I said I cant... now I believe the world really is unfair... ive done nothing to her to do this to me...

Ill be back to check things here as soon as I can... I just rushed here at the nearest café to check this post... I left my friend sleeping... shes cute... gee!

Thanks to all of you guys...
Hope we can all overcome this...
*cries*

Take things one step at a time... and one day at a time for now... don't over think them, a very common mistake so many people make. When the time comes, and the subject comes up deal with it then. Right now just enjoy yourself.

Gee!
Its been a month but still I can't get over it...

*cries*

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gee!
its been a month but still i can't get over it....

*cries*

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I feel for you man me and my ex haven't spoke for 2 months. I know it doesn't feel like

You are progressing but believe me you are. Continue NC it took me about a month or so

To even start feeling like I was moving in the right direction. Good Luck!

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gee! am crying from what i have you posted. i never expected this to happen. i love her. weve been together most of our free time. i showed her everything. i can't sleep and eat that much. i feel so sorry for my self. is there a way to win her back. ive been to a break up before but its not like this. am planning to talk to her sometime this week. i dunno if its right. i havent called or texted her since. i dont want other guysto be by her side right now, i know am being selfish. but thats how i feel. my mind says to just leave her but my heart keeps on saying "GO FIGHT FOR IT"...i really dont know what to do...i check her later this morning but no ones at their house...cant help to think of what shes doing right now..it really hurts..as if we didnt share some memories...as if i didnt become a part of her life...cant she feel anything???will she miss me???how can i get and win her back!?i dunno if i can accept it....its too hard for me....cant help but cry....its getting harder and harder to breathe.shes all that is left for me.am begging you guys.how?!

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Buddy, you got the answer by yourself. Why are you expecting us to give you the answer, you already have in front of your face. The answer is you. She gave you the answer. WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO PROTECT HER?? WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO CONTROL HER LIFE?? WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO TELL HER WITH WHOM SHE SHOULD HANG OUT? OR WHAT SHE MUST WEAR? OR WHAT SHE MUST DRINK AND SMOKE? FOR THAT THERE ARE HER PARENTS! AND NEXT TIME, WITH HER OR ANOTHER GIRL, Doesn't MATTER, Don't STAY NEAR HER 24/7. HAVE YOUR LIFE TOO. AND Disappear A LITTLE TIME AFTER TIME. IT MAKES THE THINGS BETTER. WAKE UP!!
In my opinion this is the answer, and you should tell her these words. And than disappear! For some time. Let her think of what you told her. At least she will know you understood your mistakes.
By the way, everyone needs a little time alone. That doesn't mean she doesn't love you. That means nothing more but time alone. SHe gave you the signs, but you missed them. Now, stay away for a little.
HOPE YOU ARE STILL ALIVE TO READ MY POST :)

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Yeah the deadline thing, dude, that's that's umm as low as it gets. Cutting your wrist? Get help you're highly co dependent and a danger to yourself. You can't change people either it doesn't work. They have to change for themselves. See a therapist man and forget her.

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My opinion. Why the hell people still think they must change other people?