Chemical Imbalance destroyed my relationship
Hello, I'm going to give you a brief rundown on what happened.
Im a 27 single male who is confused on what to do. Was dating a girl for close to 2 years as well. Here's the story.
In October of 2008 I started experiencing symptoms of depression, though I could see nothing was wrong with me. I had a great girlfriend, good job, etc. Though my girlfriend and my family noticed I was sleeping more, my moods were changing, and they figured I was getting depressed but didn't know why?
December roles around and my girlfriends friends tell her I'm cheating on her (they heard a name similar to mine associated with a girl, wrong accusation) and we start fighting like crazy. I end up breaking down and telling her that I don't want to deal with bs like this anymore. We end up not speaking for 3 weeks and I go to a therapist because I wanted to see what was wrong with me. They diagnosed me with a chemical imbalance and gave me a prescription medicine and my girlfriend and I got back together. That's when things really started to change.
By the 3rd week on the medication I was acting different, I was extremely moody, crying all the time, and pushing everyone away. My girlfriend and I were OK one second and then I would blow up on her the next for doing something that I didn't like. By the end of February my prescription ran out and for 4 days I was fine... back to normal and my girlfriend and I were happy. She didn't understand it but she happy I was myself again. Then I refilled the prescription. It happened all over again. We had a huge fight over something that could have been resolved with a simple ""I'm sorry, I love you" but things were said on both parts and I told her over the phone that "I would cut my throat if she didn't listen to me." I didn't have a knife to my throat but she thought I did. She decided that she wanted to end it because we were constantly fighting and she couldn't take it anymore, and wanted to move on with her life because she wanted to be happy. We haven't talked since (21 days.)
I go back to my doctor and find out that I was becoming more depressed using the medication (never heard that before but I did some research and it was true.) He prescribed me a new medication and now I feel fine. I feel like my life is balanced out. Now I'm wondering on what to do with my ex-girlfriend? I did send her flowers the day I found out and wrote the note "I'm sorry for the past couple months but respect your decision. I lost focus on who I was and let "this" effect our relationship. I hope you are well." Her response was "Thank you for the flowers and respecting my decision, I will always love you."
I have given her space and time to think but does anyone think I should even try to give it a shot. I know she must have felt so hurt and unloved and I left her to fend for herself emotionally. I don't know what to do. I love her, respect her, appreciate who she is, but I didn't show it that well while I was going through this. I don't think she will contact me first.
Please any help I get would be great.
Thank you for reading this.
Gerry
Writing a major apology letter
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If the woman still loves you, does it work? Even if you weren't under control of your problems (chemical imbalance, wrong medication, made it worse.)
Any experience in here?
She doesn't play the No Contact game. Either you contact her or you never hear from her again.
Found my ex on a dating website, though what she wants is what I have
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So recently my ex and I broke things off because of my chemical imbalance, the medication I was taking gave me horrible side effects and she couldn't handle it anymore. She told me she was going to always love me but move on with her life. I ended up getting better and
I haven't contacted her since.
So 3 weeks have gone by and my friend calls me and says "You know your ex is on a dating website." SO he forwards me the link and I read what she wanted in a mate, and everything she wants is what I was giving her and the look of the type of guy she wanted was a carbon copy of myself.
SO now what do I in this situation? Everyone keeps saying no contact but obviously she's looking to replace "me" with "me."
Shouldn't I just try and get her back?