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Keep your head up, you and your family are in the prayers of everyone on the board I'm sure!
Thanks man still no word yet.Quote:
Originally Posted by Romefalls19
Romefalls is right wiked all our prayers are with you and your family. Just stay strong!
Well the news good as of now. I was starting to freak out a bit because my phone died and had no way of being contacted. He is going o.k as it stands right now.
Besides that my day was o.k. One of my co-workers told me how they say me ex and my reply was simply this "So?".
I still have feelings for her but no were near like a few weeks ago.
Well tonight has been good. I have been talking to this old friend for a bit tonight. Cheered me and I have been talking on the phone with her for about 2 hours.
My father is doing good. Everything seems to taking fine but still not out of the woods yet and that will be on my mind.
Wow what a day :D. I cannot wait for this trip. My phone has been blown up by my old friend. We just click and talking to her feels so natural. She had me looking completely retarded smiling and blushing while my ENG was going on about Assisted Suicide. I can't wait to get and see her next month. But You know I did not really think of my ex today I guess my mind was distracted.
I left my backpack at work so I got to go by tomorrow and grab it before school :(.
My father is doing good as of now. Which is a relief but not out of the thickets yet.
Sept. 3rd,
Sept. 25th.Quote:
I'm completely crushed as I stated because I feel powerless and would do anything to stop this pain I feel,
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But You know I did not really think of my ex today I guess my mind was distracted
Hardly recognize you anymore.
Prayers to your family.
Man I know. I was reading back over and thinking wow. I do worry if I am moving too fast with "healing" I know I'm not completely there but looking back I have come along way from where I started.Quote:
Originally Posted by talaniman
Kind of a rough day to start. Well I left my backpack at work last night and thus could not study for my physics quiz which I promptly failed because I could not get my backpack before said quiz. Well I had to get it since I could not go to Pre-cal with out it. Missed that class and had my friend Lindsey ride with me (the lesbian friend). After that it was a good day. We grabbed something to eat and talked and laughed a bit.
The closer the day gets to my vacation the more anxious I get to leave. I can't wait to meet up with this old friend. I know she is really looking forward to it. Also my car needs some work done :). Like I stated before I like this girl as does she to me. But I do not want to rush into anything. She will be moving back here come Dec we'll see where I'm at then.
But so far everything is o.k today. Beside my Physics class.
From my old friend. She has just completely blown me away. She just sent me that message on myspace.
"What I don't understand, is why you think I won't be into you when you come up here. You have no idea, and your second thoughts, are silly. I'm really into you, I can't quit thinking about you, I go to sleep with you in my thoughts, and wake up the very same. I've never met someone so real, Ive always thought highly of you, and Ive always wanted to be your girl. Just yours. The tingles you give me, ugh to this day, are amazing. Dont be low in self eestem, because you are so sexy, oh so sexy. And I adore you literally. Nate I could see me with you forever, I could see a future, and for now I can only imagine it. I know if we gave us a shot back then, that we'd still be together this day. Happy. I dont want to sound weird, and stalkish, or rush anything, because Im not ready to throw myself at anyone. My heart to me is still torn and bruised. And it no longer waits for that one, true person. It lost its faith, and so have I. Im not happy. I dont know what happy is, nor do I really think its for me. But I want you to know, that she didnt deserve you, you are too pure, too good hearted, too clean. She didnt respect you and she took advantage. If I had you, Id feel blessed, spoiled. I would never use you, and Id always be there to help you, encourage you to be your best, and love you for everything you are. If you made a mistake, Id forgive you, and not give you hell for it. If we were to argue, Id only kiss you and hold you as close as I possibly could, because I wouldnt want to lose you, Id do my best to make you happy, and tell you everyday how much you mean too me. If you had a hard day, id rub you from your head to your toes, and listen to your day, if you ever were sore, id kiss every part of you just to make sure I got the right part. Id make you smile with the goofy I do, Im a trip. And everyday would be different, never the same, Id be there for you, no matter the issue. I could be dirt poor with you, and somehow still be thankful because I have you. Still be happy, you are sweet babe. And im crazy about you."
Funny I was talked to my friend and basically got on a conversation about how my ex would call again etc. And
Well damn it. I just got off the phone with my ex she called me from a number I did not recognize. I knew as soon as I heard the voice. Of course my heart was racing the whole time but honestly I'm not that affected.
She asked if I emailed her father which I did and I said I did. She went to say how she did not appreciate me doing that and asked me why. I explained I regretted doing so and felt I did over step the lines. She went to say something but not doing any more crazy stuff or I'll regret it etc. But I just brushed it off and said o.k goodbye. I have no plans on communicating her or any of her family and have not for a while now.
Now I did not bad mouth her at all. Simply had emailed her father apologizing for something that happened before they left to Japan.
I guess in the end she lied to her family about what she did. And after emailing her father, he gave her a very good earful. He family absolutely trusted me and much more. I think I will keep
Guess I keep that graphing calculator now :D
Talking to my friend now and feeling a little better about.
But I will take that treat serious should anything happen I will pursue legal action.
So now if an unknown ph# comes up are you going to screen the call?
I don't fear answering my phone. I should not have to. :D but now I know which not to answerQuote:
Originally Posted by cantbelieveit
How long did it take you to get to this point? I dream of the day where I feel normal again. If my ex called right now I'd answer without a beat. So sad...
It will come and for me stuff just came together. I realized what was wrong and at this point I just do not want to talk to her again or see her. She left me for another man. She crushed my heart. I do not want those feelings coming back. I will always care for her but I know we will never be. Her feelings would never match mine. I cannot explain it. I feel I am moving on. God to sit on the phone and not have my mind race about stuff was nice :D.Quote:
Originally Posted by cantbelieveit
Good day today. Majority of my 10 hour work day consisted of Politics (no arguing as I don't argue politics), Religion (another thing I don't argue just discussed) and then Paranormal stuff like ghost. But I enjoyed. Seems my NC started over today because of that phone call last night but o well.
I have realized the many wrong points in my ex and I's relationship.
This is kind of turning to a journal but I apologize. Maybe this will help someone someday.
I had a dream again last night. I had apparently stole her car. I was driving to Fredricksburg VA for an unknown reason. I stopped for gas or something and her car is always a mess with clothes and other things. I picked a diary type thing.
In it read
"This is true Love. I have never felt this way before. I think he his the one. He will be my hubby <3"
This was all referring to her new BF. Don't really get it but :/.
I really hate dreams that mess with your head. Well dreams like that would mess with me. You seem like you can let it roll off. Maybe since she called it's in the back of your mind so you had that dream... ya think?
Yeah that is what I was thinking.Quote:
Originally Posted by cantbelieveit
So its been a good day. No real thoughts of her. I just sometimes hope I do not see her as I do not want to ever again.
Ordered new tires for my car and they screwed up so now I got to wait until Friday to get those put on.
Well its been a little awhile huh? Got my tires and my trip for Tuesday is going all to plan at this moment. Getting my car worked on in WV, as I don't trust mechanics around here to mess with my subaru SVX. I'll be staying with that friend I mentioned while my car is getting worked on. She has been really looking forward to seeing me. Also got my check from school so that's added money I did not expect to have on this trip.
How have you been holding up?
Pretty good occasion spikes but nothing like before. I honestly am at the point where I do not wish ill will or anything but see no need in seeing or talking again to her.Quote:
Originally Posted by High Max
Back from my trip and feel worse then ever. I do not know. I do not miss her I miss the feelings. The warmth I felt in my heart when I held her in my arms. But its what ever. Who the hell was she to do this to me, why? All this questions have been asked before. But I'm tired.
I just do not feel like doing anything anymore I'm so very tired of putting on this fake smile for everyone. I'm tired of convincing myself every morning to get up and go to school or work.
My trip was okay. Towards the end for some reason I'm not sure of I started to get really depressed. Is not really her just woke up and felt like pure .
Sounds like you don't miss her , but you miss who you thought she was.
I'm still feeling pretty damn low. I am not sure why. I can look at her myspace and not have the emotions flood and I laughed a bit. I constantly fight myself every morning to get up and got to school and work.
Trip was okay, drank a bit smoked a bit something I never do. I had fun but felt I misread signals from someone and allowed myself to misinterpret things. And from your postYup it was A.Quote:
Originally Posted by friend4u178
Just do not know anymore. I thought I was done with this crap.
I use to feel pretty low back in the drinking days, until the alcohol ran its course.
Look guy, there will always be highs and lows in life, whether your heart broken over a relationship, or happy in one. That's life, and the key is dealing with it, whether your having a good day, or bad.
It gets better.
Just for the record...
The drinking, smoking and sex (was it forced?) might have a hand in making you feel a little worse. Almost as if you were trying to replace something you used to have, and realized that it hurt you more than healed you...
Just a thought...
No sex was not forced. And you all are right. What I thought would help me instead probably hurt me more. I'm not normally one to drink or smoke, but I was on vacation and wanted a break and just to have fun. Also this friend I visited I have always had a thing for and as she has for me but due to how life played out we never got together. But sorry about posting a little bit*h fest was feeling down.Quote:
Originally Posted by bigbird213
No worries, happens to us all...
By now you know its ups and downs, just ride out the downs and enjoy the ups... Its going to happen for a LONG time, so get used to it :p
So I thought I was done. I moved on hadn't spoken to her or attempted to for that matter. Till this afternoon she called my phone. I didn't recognize the number.
I answered she immediately asked for her calculator and Dvds back. Which I replied I said I'd get it to you and then said goodbye.
Well I let that slide until a friend of mine texted her. Which she promptly started blowing my phone up I ignored it 3 times which she left me voice mails all which I have saved. I didn't know someone sent her a message let alone what it said.
So she leaves me very nasty messages regarding how she never loved me her new BF is twice the man I am blah blah blah. I'm a crowd and a b*tch getting people to send her messages. How her new boyfriend does everything so much better.
None of that bothers me to be honest. My ego is intact.
I finally answered on the 4th call which she promptly went to screaming at me about someone sending her a message. I told her I don't know what it said I had nothing to do with it. She continued to scream about her calculator and wanting it now. I told her I'd give to her like I promised and told her I owe her no favors but she will get her stuff. At that point she hung up.
Now I was done with this crap but her and her new BF continued to send treating messages about my life and my friends to my friend. I do not take kindly to threats and have document everything saving the messages so should anything happen I'll have something to show.
I'm not one for conflict I attempt to avoid it. I am a very relaxed person and can overlook a lot and keep trucking. But so help me god should they attempt to confront me I am not sure of what I will do. The anger that has built up inside me from theses actions is something I have never felt before. To make threats to me about my well being and what not is something I have no tolerance for. I'm not looking for them because if I were I could simply go over there but I'm not one to start this all. I will only defend myself or press charges if any property damage is done. I'm beyond angry, I'm never get angry like this but so help god shall something stupid arrive. She has no idea what she has provoked from me.
Attempting to cool off but this anger will not dissipate.
Here are the voice mails if you care to hear
Stay Classy man! You are an upstanding guy and you DO NOT need to stoop to their level. Don't let your anger guide your actions. I know it is easier said than done, but their immaturity is almost laughable. Hang in there! You are first class, they are just trash.
O I have. But I can only control it so much, I'm not sure what will happen if they attempt confront me in person.Quote:
Originally Posted by kctiger
All right, I just listened to the VM. That is awesome! I haven't laughed like that in a long time. Let this slide off your back. Her vocabulary is pretty sweet... give her a dictionary when you give her a calculator back. I would be upset if I were you, but in the end it is more comical than anything.
I know your adrenaline is pumping right now. Just breathe and calm down. I highly doubt they are going to confront you in person, and if they do, then they will find themselves in a court room (and behind bars). Don't let them make you lose sleep tonight. They are first class trash man!
I got a kick out of them but what has gotten me is her new BF threatening my friend and me. I'm not a small guy I'm about 6ft and 250 lbs. I don't speak much nor do I put up empty threats. I don't fight but you threaten my life you better be able to back it because I will not take it easy should they be stupid enough to confront me.Quote:
Originally Posted by kctiger
All this happened about 5 hours ago and I'm still heated.Quote:
Originally Posted by kctiger
I don't blame you. I know I would be heated, but I am also a guy who has acted out of anger way too much in my life, and I regret EVER single time I did. Get a punching bag and let loose!
Never have I ever acted out of anger. Regardless of the sh*t in my life that has been dealt have I ever felt this heated. Not even when I watched my mom be abused. They have stricken the only nerve I have.Quote:
Originally Posted by kctiger
Here are the threatening text messages from that dude terry to my friend.
Ahh... I see. Well, I don't know you or Nate. I do know one thing. Sadly, I know no harm will come to Brittany. That is because I am here
Well, you are going to hurt someone I truly love. And I am certain you truly love nate. I believe in eye for an eye. Please don't think I am threatening you . I'd never do that. I swear. I am just telling you the consequences of your actions. I believe you can be the bigger person here. You should be happy. You got nate. Don't ruin it. I'll tell Brittany never to call you guys again Just please don't force my hand in this matter
Regardless. You are going to bloody more than just your hands. I stopped fighting a while ago. Lol and I'm not skinny anymore I've filled out since High school. But its set. I have said what I will do. What happens next is up to you
Well, if you decide to hurt Brittany you'll need him. Once I'm done I'm coming after you. Idc if he weighs 250 and is pure muscle. Idc if he's standing next to you with 10 of his friends. I'm coming stright for you and I won't stop pounding you till the medics have to scoop your little face off the ground. I don't mind destroying a girl :D
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