Hi Again, well we went to the game, saw her kissed her on the forehead. During the game she had what looked liked a panic attack, turned pale. 15 minutes later she was OK. We left after the game, walked her to her car said good bye, she thanked me for the companionship. On my way home she called me, we chatted a little. I called her later on to make sure she got home safe since the panic attack incident I was worried about her. She was home and fine. She texted me an hour later to make sure I was home and safe and good night. I had already gone to bed and did not get her message until the morning. I called her that evening and apologized for not writing back, and that I had gone to bed already. Her answer was do not worry about it, I went to bed as well and did not stay up waiting for you to write back. As I was saying good night, I said "Sweet Dreams Sweets" she asked what did I just called her, I said sweets. She told me that it make her uncomfortable and that we are not boyfriend and girlfrind anymore. That her panic attack was partially because of me, the kiss on the forehead made her nervous, none of her friends kisses her there. I told her I'd refrain from calling her sweet names and will only hug her and kiss her on the cheek.
Last week end along with 2 other friends we took a 5 hour drive for a 3 day soccer meeting. I drove, and we picked her up and picked someone else along the way. There was 4 of us. As I drove she referred to me as "darling" although she asked that I stop referring to her with those words. We got safely to our location, and had meetings until about 9PM. At 11:20 I get a text message that says "good night, thanks for everything today and see you tomorrow". What do I make of this? Is she playing games? No one else sent me thank you messages and needless to say at 11:20 PM. The next day again meetings all day and we were together side by side throughout the day, Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, Meetings. THat evening we went out to a bar and lo and behold she was with us for a little and took off and went from group to group socializing with everyone. Once in a while I caught her looking through people to find me. I was upset but did not say anything. That night at 1:AM after we returned to our respective dorms, she called me to make sure we knew what time the meeting was in the morning and to ask what time we were meeting for breakfast. I replied that there are 3 of us in the room with book and knew the time of the meeting. I felt like there was something else she wanted to say but don't know what. Anyway we hit the road the next day, dropped her off, said good bye with a longer hug and kisses on the cheek and head, since I am taller than her. I called her "hun" and apologized right away since that makes her uncomfortable, she replied it is OK. Can you makes sense of this? I certainly cannot. I am very blurred right now.
This past Wednesday went to another game this time she was officiating. We went to dinner afterwards, and upon leaving, the hug was more than a hug, our hands held onto one another as we were separating. Maybe it is just me, but the look on her eyes was very tempting to say "I Love You" and felt like I would have gotten the same back. I have not spoken to her since then. Any comments? If you feel like I am overanalyzing, please say so...
