An audition? Very cool, for what?

A new musical at the theatre royal. Its good that I have something to focus on this week.

That is great!! Good for you, congratulations! :)

A new musical at the theatre royal. At least I have something to keep me busy.

Well I went into college yesterday to record something and we saw each other... though I made it quite obvious I wanted nothing to do with her. We didn't even say hello. She came out of the green room with her mate, saw me and they both just froze in my line of vision, until I got up and left with someone I was talking to. I tyhen spent the next hour in the courtyard where she kept parking herself so that she was in my vision. Then later I was outside her studio and came out from behind me and so shouted quite loud to her mate 'hellllo!' to get me to turn round, but I knew, she was there so I didn't. She ende up going home. Worse thing is that she kept looking over and when these 3 3nd year girls went 'steeeeeevve' to me and came to give mea bug hug I could see form the corner of my eye, my eye just starring. Anywhew, I'm actually in agood mood, because I was veey strong I thought and strangely I just don't care anymore. I know things can never be the same, I wudnt av her back even if she begged me because I couldn't trust her again, and I just got too many other things I want to do and other girls I want to meet... and not her! I'm happy :)

Well done mate! Sounds like you are doing well with the NC. Also sounds like she may be thinking she made a mistake. I guess it must suck to be her. My home computer is stilll down. Should have it fixed next week. Anyway I and my ex talked a couple of days ago. So NC was broken and I am not sure where we sit at the moment. She talked about "hanging out" next weekend for a bit whatever that means.

Srulik,

Good Job! I am glad you are feeling better. And you are right, go do what you want to do, and meet a new woman! I am very happy for you! Keep up that strength!

F104,

I think it's great that you and your ex are going to get together. How did she sound?

Star she sounded really good. Totally upbeat. We did not talk about the relationship. The conversation was mainly about her and what she had been doing etc. She mentioned "hanging out" next weekend some time. I wish I could say that I am not getting my hopes up but I am.

Maybe things will work out for both you and me.

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Star she sounded really good. Totally upbeat. We did not talk about the relationship. The conversation was mainly about her and what she had been doing etc. She mentioned "hanging out" next weekend some time. I wish I could say that I am not getting my hopes up but I am.

Maybe things will work out for both you and me.

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Sweetie, that would be great! I hope they do too ;)

Hey guys,

Thanks for the support. I just did an audition which went quite badly, so feleing a bit low right now and tempted to text of comfort... but I know it will do no good at all! So not going to. f104, congrats mate. Just take it slow, don't push her, etc but you know all that anyhow. I really hope it works out for you mate. We'll av a proper ctach up when your computer works again.

Hi Srulik,

I'm sorry that the audition didn't go well. But, that is a good thing that you came here instead of contacting her. :)

Exatcly. I wrote out a text which I wanted to send then saved it on my fone. And said to myself 'only do it if you get a sign' and the next song on my fone was 'forget her' by jeff buckley hahahaha. So I take it I shudnt.

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exatcly. i wrote out a text which i wanted to send then saved it on my fone. and said to myself 'only do it if u get a sign' and the next song on my fone was 'forget her' by jeff buckley hahahaha. so i take it i shudnt.

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Oh Man! LOL! (that is a good song, too!). Well, I too look for signs as well sometimes. And I think the sign you received was right on target! ;)

I agree. Then I got a fone call from the casting director for this next show I'm going for on Tuesday and I saw that as a sign saying stevie boy 'work your off for this!' forget her!

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i agree. then i got a fone call from the casting director for this next show im going for on tuesday and i saw that as a sign saying stevie boy 'work ur off for this!' forget her!

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Absolutely! That is another key sign, too!

I'm not one for signs, but pat yourself on the back, for not sending that text. A little progress, is still progress.

I just hope if a song came on called "Do it" you wouldn't do it.

... remember its just a song - coincidence is nothing to base your life on :)

Too bad about the audition mate. How are you doing otherwise?

Yea I'm doing good. Out with the lads tonight, enjoying single life. Trying to forget about her and slowly am which is good. Got another audition to prepeare for on Tuesday which is something to work towards. How are you buddy?

OK now how does this make sense? I see my ex girlfriend yesterday, I don't give a damn about her when I see her, and even after she's gone I don't care... now a day later I start to miss her. And I was just talking to a guy in her class and he said she's going to be in his musical and he originally wanted me to play guiatr for it and I said 'oooo glad your not anymore, would be a bit award with her' and he said 'yea' we then sp[oke abit about it and I said 'end of the day we're two different people' and he said 'well I know you both and I would agree.' whichstrangely annoyed me because I thought 'NO YOU Don't KNOW US LIKE THAT AND WE DO WORK VERY WELL TOGETHER' and now I'm all hung up on her. Just got to stop myself from contacting her. Why now though do I feel like this?