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How amazing that little things can change your attitude. That's why my routine is one where I am never to
Tired
Hungry
Angry
Stressed
And when I take care of those areas of my life I generally can deal with anything. A good daily routine helps me make it through a good day(I choose to have a good day)
If you're not contributing constructively here, you are contributing constructive there! :D
Yeah, those basics are really important and its up to each person as to how well they manage them in their life.Quote:
Originally Posted by talaniman
If a person doesn't manage them well, then they get what they get. But that is true for all of us. I learned how to manage them by disliking the effect of mismanaging them enough to do something about it! DOH LOL
If you're not meant to be with him, you're meant to be with another.
Anyway I'm going to try hard not to ruminate about the past, but instead looking forward to what's coming. Like many of you said "the best is yet to come!" I want to be happy, and no one else can help me with that. I've done enough grieving, learning, blaming, and regretting. The only person that's making me sad is myself, by not letting go, and by saying I'm sad all the time. I'm going to stop thinking that I want to be with my ex, stop wishing for a second chance, and stop plotting. It's time to move forward and focus on the positive things in life.
Some good things that happened because of this:
- I've learnt not to rush into a relationship
- I've learnt more about myself
- I've learnt some new technique to deal with break ups LOL
- I met a bunch of GREAT people on a random forum, that I came across by googling "How to get your ex back"... (hey most people came here asking aobut that too lol)
- I made a new friend in real life, and he's the sweetest, most caring guy I've ever met. We were strangers when we first met, but now he's one of the few people that I want to talk to whenever I'm down in the dumps.
- I'm single and freeeee :)
I want to be happily/purposefully single!
http://www.baddteddy.com/adventures/1/frog/frog.jpgQuote:
Originally Posted by kaitou
For asking if I am old :p and to do your studies!! (but yes, I've accumulated enough years to be your Mom, a very very young Mom :)
Being a fish may be fun for a day or so, but I think the fish community needs to come up with a more respectfull way of laying their loved ones to rest other than SWISH down the drain.
Nice perspective Kaitou. Let me offer a little more
Some good things that happened because of this:
- I've learnt not to rush into a relationship
Do you know how many people don't learn this for 2,3, 5 relationships later?
Scary, huh? I can show you threads here like that. Big big lesson --- BRAVO!
- I've learnt more about myself
Always a good thing. Courageous and pays handsome dividends all down the road, keeep that up!
- I've learnt some new technique to deal with break ups LOL
Actually you've learned some skills that will be handy for all disappointments, rejections, failures and losses and this one is probably the most significant one in my mind. Life has those in store for us and when we learn we can and do survive them, we are empowered to take better educated risks as a result. Powerful stuff.
- I met a bunch of GREAT people on a random forum
I just wanted to sat THANKS for that one :p
When I learn something new it spins my beanie. When I see you learn something new, it spins it twice as fast--weeeeeeeee!
I think you have given some great input here "it is truly about learning how to deal with a situation". One's reaction to deal with loss is so important. It can help you or break you.
Feels like this thread is becoming my journal >.>
BUT I want to report to allheart that I did fine in both of my midterms today :O!! They were surprisingly easy. I feel like I lucked out :)!! That brighten my day so much, doing well in schooool. AT least I don't have to stress about my marks :)
Dear Ex, may I call you Ex?
See what you've done to me? I am on some random website assembling my thoughts for no one - to rid my head of the looped video that is you. I am not mad. (that's an emotion that I don't waste much time on). This letter is the equivalent of finding me in downtown LA swapping scoring crack in a back alley and ducking police cruisers. In some ways I am revelling in this feeling of utter vulnerability. But at the same time I sense you were not 100% honest. And honesty is the cornerstone of your re-built self. So, I know that was eating you up. It eats me up too. In a few days I'll wander away from this site and head on back to life. But I'll leave this note, sure you will never see it. You were born with a something... it is special, and it is dangerous.
At the touch of love everyone becomes a poet.
--Plato
Lost love is the one thing that stops us all in our tracks and makes us equal. Where we go from there determines our character.
--Me
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Originally Posted by Ash123
Oh Ash,
Everything you said just is worth repeating. Only thing is, I hope you don't wonder too far away from us. Your contributions have been amazing!!
I love your quote:Lost love is the one thing that stops us all in our tracks and makes us equal. Where we go from there determines our character - written by Ash123.
Hey. Stumbled upon your idea and I must say it's brilliant!! I'm going to give it a bash coz' I definitely need some closure from my last break-up.
Dear Removable *ss*ole,
Since you broke up with me I've realised a lot about myself. I can run everyday now, without having to listen to you whine about it, I can lie down and read a book, without you telling me that there's no point coz' they made a movie and above all of that I wake up every morning without a hangover coz' the only time I had a drinking problem was when I was with you. Honestly, I loved you with everything and this is what you reduced me to, a breakdown, se and a tarnished reputation from all the lies that you've told. I know that I'm better off without you now, I know that now when, in my awesome job, I make my awesome salary I can buy myself awesome stuff instead of paying for your alcoholism. More than anger or hurt I'm disappointed, the one characteristic that I thought would never fade from you soul was your good nature, I guess I was wrong. I've lost all respect for you and your entire family because you fed them all those lies and they believed you. Initially I told you that I was nothing without you, but you know what, you're nothing without me! I'm no longer around to buy you this or pay for that. I no longer have to put up with you immaturity and your worthless freeloading friends. I know that regardless of what you may say about me that I am better off without you, I've never done so well for myself in my entire life. All I need for you to know is that you're not the person that I fell in love with anymore, but guess what, I'm still the person you fell in love with and when you're all alone because you've treated everyone the way you treated me, and you finally realise what you had with me and how you ruined everything, maybe, just maybe I'll take the time to actually cut your call.
On second thoughts no, I'll just leave it ringing...
Thank you for giving me the best gift ever, my passion back!
Fornever Yours...
Dear Ex,
On one hand, I hope that your life is good now because I think you have a lot of special qualities and can be a nice guy. You taught me so much. You opened my eyes to the world really. You are intelligent, funny, witty, interesting, sweet, polite, worldly, unique, and beautiful. But, on the other hand, you can be selfish, self-satisfied, unyeilding, and a bit of a know-it-all. You do have a superiority complex. I think we both know that. I found it challenging at the time, but looking back you could be very condescending to people... me included. That irritated me. That part of you, I don't miss, but your wonderful qualities, I do. Another part of me admittedly hopes that your life is unhappy now because of how much you hurt me. I hope that the relationship with the girl that you left me for turned out to be a situation where the grass was in fact NOT greener on the other side. Was it all worth it? Was she worth the fact that you lost me even as a friend? Worth the fact that we no longer even speak to one another? It's sad to think about the way everything turned out.
I find myself wondering now if I ever even knew you at all. Were you a master deceiver? Why did you lead me on? Was I blind? I truly thought that I had found the one in you. The one that made all the other bad relationships, unrequited crushes, and short lived flings worth going through... because they led me to you. Maybe my head was in the clouds or I am guilty of being a believer in stupid sayings like "love conquers all". I should stop watching those chick flicks I suppose. Those movies tend to make us girls believe that the guy that left us will have a change of heart at the end... that he will come running through the rain to declare what a terrible mistake he made and declare his undying love. I guess that's why they call it fiction.
I was very thrown and very hurt when you broke things off with me literally out of nowhere. At least it was out of nowhere for me. Why couldn't you discuss your feelings with me? If something was bothering you about our relationship, why didn't you try to fix it rather than just deciding to end it all of a sudden? We didn't even have a fight or anything. In fact we were making plans for the future. I have never had a relationship end so mysteriously. That is partially why I found it so hard to get over. I kept wondering what the h**l happened. It just made no sense... unless you were pretending to care for me. That must be it because people that care for someone don't just up and leave for another partner. I think maybe you were using me for some purposes that I was not aware of.
I know that we were long distance and I am not blind to the fact that that is an obstacle. I know the distance was hard, but you knew that when we met. Maybe you gave it an honest try, but couldn't do it after all. I appreciated the fact that you wanted to remain in touch and be friends and even still see visit one another, but how could I do that? I would see you and my heart would want more. My feelings didn't change overnight. I can't just switch them off like a light switch. How can I discuss your new relationship without a pain in my heart when I was hurt and cast aside so that this relationship could flourish. That makes your wanting to discuss the relationship with me like a slap in the face. Why can't you understand that?
I know you didn't seem to understand why I found it hard to be your friend after the breakup. You falsely believe it to be because I "hate" you, but that's not true. You have some uncanny ability to stay in touch with all of your exes and not seem bothered at all by their new relationships, but I'm not like that. I wonder about your ability to even love someone. I knew it was a red flag when we you told me that you had never been in love when we first met. That's kind of unusual for a 28 year old male. Also, you told me that you never wanted to get married, never wanted a family, and that when you fell for a girl you would always do something stupid to ruin it. Red flags which I chose to ignore because of how attracted to you I was. Yes, I got hurt but I couldn't just not give things a try. Lesson learned the hard way for me.
I miss you evey day. I miss talking to you. I miss laughing with you. I miss planning our next vacation or trip together. You wanted to travel the world and so did I. I grieve for that dream coming to an end. There really is no one that I would rather see the world with than you. I had a lot of respect for your opinions and it is very hard for me not to tell you things that happen in my life. I miss sharing things with you, from the small to the important. I miss walking down the street in a strange city and holding your hand. I miss sitting in a bar in a new town with you and getting into conversations with the locals. I miss lying in bed with you and reaching over to hug you when you stirred. I just miss you.
Maybe I was crazy, niave, and living in a dream world. Maybe if things had actually worked out with you and I moved to your city, they might not have been as good as I had hoped. It may have been a mistake, but I was willing to try at least. As I told you in our last conversation, "At least I know I tried. I have no regrets. Take care".
Goodbye ex. I guess this is the way it has to be.
SouthernBelle.
Excellent letter Belle!
You've made a great deal of progress, especially coming to grips with the liklihood that you were used by a dishonest person -- that one is never easy for anyone to get their head around or to come away from less naïve but not jaded. BRAVO!
Yes wonderful letter Belle. Great stuff. Thank you for sharing that!
I echo Val's sentiments. It is a hard thing to be so brutally honest with ourselves at times. Often we convince ourselves to believe things that aren't necessarily true. It isn't until we are honest with ourselves that true healing begins.
This post shows how far you have come.
I know you still hurt and I can see that there is still some way for you to go but if you maintain the healthy and honest and honest attitude you have shown here than it will be closer than you think!
Well done!
This thread is just the best!
Here is one a bit reversed...
To the Sweet Guy Who Tried:
It wasn't your fault I was so screwed up and it wasn't your fault that we failed. I came that way already and was trying to hide it from everyone, especially you. And I was really a mess. I take responsibility knowing now how that truly frees me. It took what it took for me to finally get help and it cost more in time, money and effort than you might ever have guessed it would too. I know I would never have guessed and would have never begun had I known how much it would actually take. Good thing I didn't know. There is no way I could do it for you though, even though I wished I could. I had to do it for me and barely managed that as it was.
I am sorry my act was just an act and that you genuinely bought it. Sadly I bought it too at the time. I've since then learned that's called denial. I regret looking like I was up for offering you a shot at a real relationship when I was in no shape whatsoever to offer anyone anything at the time. I wasn't even date material, truthfully. I found out later what a con artist I had been, how deep my denial, how practiced my lies. I was good at lying to myself so it came as second nature to lie to you. I am very sorry for that.
You left me shaking your head, no doubt and I was somewhat embarrassed at the time too but I got over that. I just wanted to let you know I got the help after all. It was really hard work but I finally made it to the real me. I will be forever grateful to you for not adding to the big pile of things I already had to heal from and overcome and mostly for leaving me on my front porch with the lingering impresson of your kiss on my forehead.
You were such a sweet guy.
Love,
Me
Brilliant Val!
So genuine!
I like that letter Val. So many times others take rejection personally when it's not there fault or there was nothing wrong with them. The timing just wasn't right.
Dear Ex,
I gave you six years of my life, the best years, and you threw them all back in my face.
Everything you said about our future was a lie, you looked at houses with me knowing that it wasn't what you wanted, but even when I asked you, you never told me the truth.
For six years you said you would never cheat on me because you had seen the hurt that it caused others in your family, so you can imagine my shock at finding out you had kissed another girl.
But the worst thing is, I didn't even get the dignity to break up with you myself because you dumped me, and two weeks before xmas!
I have had contact with you every week since and you play with my emotions and shout me down, you have no remorse for what you have done and take great pleasure in rubbing it in my face.
The worst thing is I love you and hate myself when it should be the other way round. I hate myself for being so weak and pathetic and wanting you back. I hate myself for not seeing it coming and blaming myself for everything that went wrong. I hate myself for trusting you and giving you my whole heart and not keeping a bit for myself.
I never wanted to be this person, I gave you everything that was humanly possible to give another person and you threw me away like an old dishrag.
I hope you hurt like I hurt one day, to know the pain of someone taking your heart out with a spoon, to not be able to look at yourself in the mirror because you feel completely worthless. To see other people and compare yourself to them knowing that you weren't good enough even after you gave your all.
But it's not just you I have lost, its your family who were like my family. You have never considered anyone's feelings other than yourself. You panicked about commitment and now spend your time giving 18 year olds high fives and sending ringtones to one another (your 23 for god sake!)
I hate it that you had nothing when I met you, but we worked together and I supported you when you wanted a job in the emergency services. So you walk around with all the power and your badge, wowing the girls with your uniform and forgetting the person who helped you get it in the first place.
You say things to mess up my head and we kiss when I see you, I know you love me, and one day you will realise the mistake you have made. When you grow up, give me a call!
X
Dear exes,
Thank you for putting up with my immature wild ways and kicking me to the curb. I know it wasn't easy being with me, and sorry I just didn't know better. Thanks for showing me that I could be better, and can enjoy and be happy with my life mate, and kids and grand kids. All of this because you all had the wisdom to tell me to get the hell out!!
Thanks so much, for the freedom to find my happiness.
XXXXXXXXXXXX:)
Dear you, see you in another life and all the best
Love me
X
OH here's mine you had to be so immature as to go and tell anyone who could read or hear your lousy, dirty, lowlife untrue lies. Did it make you feel like a man to humilate me by doing this? WELL YOU IDIOT OF A FOOL OF A LOUSE SNAKE OR ANYTHING ELSE I CAN THINK OF.. YOU ARE NOTHING MORE THAN A JUVENILE IMMATURE CHILD IN A MANS BODY.. HOPE YOU ROT IN... because I am moving on in life and am a much more better person than you could ever wish to be.. at least I have honesty, and morals that you could never have.
That is my contribution lol... feel so much better now :D
"LBP disagrees: I like the letter, too... But to say something like that isn't personal just isn't the truth. When someone rejects, no matter their intentions, it's personal."
Not at all. If someone has owns a business that requires there attention 16 hours out of the day and they don't have time for dating and reject someone it's not personal. It's reality. If someone just broke off a 5 year relationship and the following week someone asks them out and get denied, it's not personal, it's bad timing. I could come up with 20 more scenarios as could you where rejection wasn't personal.
Maybe not for one side...
Life hurts sometimes and just as there is pleasure there is pain. That's just life, and you take the good with the bad.Quote:
Originally Posted by LBP
You can take anything you want personally, but that doesn't make it personal.
There's a simple test: Is this something that would affect any relationship, or is it specific to the relationship with me? If it's the former, it's not personal. If it's the latter, it is personal. You just have to keep in mind the fact that not everything in the other person's life has anything to do with you.
If you take everything personally, then you've earned the pain you get. Not deserve, since almost nobody deserves to be hurt, but definitely earned.
Maybe I just define that word differently... You can say it's not personal, but someone is still telling you with complete confidence that their life would be better off without you... I mean, you can be stoic about it, but unless you're fairly cold it's still going to hurt and yes it IS still going to be personal... If the person in question is serious about the relationship, they're not going to do that. If they have the perfect partner then do they really just go and dump them for the sake of a job?
Is a job ever worth that? I mean, no one ever wishes on their deathbed that they'd put more time into their work.
First you are very sensitive, understandable given what you've been through. Second, you may try hard and think you're the perfect partner, but that judgement is not your call. As humans we all have our own take on things and when a female doesn't have that feeling for you its her call and doesn't mean you have no worth, she just doesn't have that feeling. Work on the self esteem and self confidence, as your judgement can be clouded by the emotions you feel. Accept that this one wasn't the one, and don't let it affect how you feel about yourself. That's what healing is all about.Quote:
Originally Posted by LBP
To add to what Tal has already said sometimes if you get dumped it's not because there life is going to be better. Maybe they have to devote more time to ailing parents or have issues from the past that interfere with getting close to someone. I'm fairly emotional, in fact many women are not as emotional as I am, but that doesn't mean I let there rejection define me. There rejection may not even be rejection, that's the definition your giving it. Give it another meaning such as a learning experience or period in your life but don't let one or a thousand people tell you rejection is the definition for who you are. I'm sure you heard Michael Jordon was rejected from his high school basketball team the first time he tried out. He didn't let that one moment or that one person who let him go define him.Quote:
Originally Posted by LBP
But that depends on what there values are. If you value you job more than a relationship you work more. Some people don't value the job but value the security that the job brings, but still value that more than a relationship. As Wildcat says the relationship is part of your life, not your whole life.Quote:
Originally Posted by LBP
Dear Danielle, (like I care about hiding her name)
I'm sorry I didn't make the kind of money it would take to make you happy enough to want to stay with me. Thanks for leading me on though, I guess my heart wasn't what you were after by saying the things you said. I was a fool for thinking that the love I thought we had would have been enough. It's too bad the way the world works for people who still believe in old fashioned "all you need is love"
Guess I'll know better next time, thanks for making me stronger!
Over Over
For sure... Hope you guys don't think I'm still hung up on that girl. It's amazing, but these past few months have worked wonders for me... I hardly think of her anymore. I have a date on Monday with a beautiful girl, actually, who seems like a marvelous person... Here's hoping!
Dear ex,
A few days ago our prof announced to the whole class that he needs to speak with you, you skipped class as usual. It's been almost 2 months since we broke up, and the last we had any contact was 1 month ago. So I saw no harm in informing you about what the prof said. So I did just that. I knew that being nice to you wouldn't mean anything to you, and I'm not trying to be nice to you to get you back or whatever, I'm over our relationship. I simply wanted to do something nice, since I still consider you as a friend. My intention was truly truly pure. But then I found myself getting upset at the fact that you didn't even say thanks. This might be a reflection of how immature I am, getting upset at a little thing like this.
From this I realize while I want to maintain some kind of friendship with you, you probably simply don't care about anything relating to me. And I realize any friendly/nice gesture I do for you would probably end up somehow hurting me, by your lack of response or something. I'll just feel rejected over and over again.
So today I took another step forward by deleting you off my msn contact list. I didn't block you. So if one day you want to be friends again or see how I'm doing, even years and years from now feel free to contact me.
I will no longer make any contact with you. Talaniman was right even sending a e-greeting birthday card would be too much. So I won't even do that on your birthday. Not because I forgot what day it is, not because I don't want you to have a happy birthday, not because I don't care, but because I'll probably feel sad that you didn't even reply to my e-greeting.
Anyway hope you're happy.
Sincerely,
Me
Dear ex go get hit by a bus :D
Dear ex,
Thanks for showing me how much four years is really worth once someone else comes along,
P.S. Go sit on a thumbtack.
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Originally Posted by kelcii_x
What if the bus hit both of them and they fell onto the thumbtack? It would be like a two for one!Quote:
Originally Posted by X-stream87
Dear Mr. Cigarettes,
I miss you so very much. It's been three very long months that we have been apart. A part of me, a very big part of me, wants you back so much, even though, I know, you are not good for me.
I even went on medicine, which I just got off, to help me not want you anymore. The moment I stopped the medicine, the more my longing for you increased.
I love you, I hate you, I want you back but you make me stink. When you were in my life, I had to stand outside in the cold, in the blazing heat, in snow, in rain, and yet, a part of me is willing to do this all again.
You were my friend. Sometimes the only one who seemed to get me and boy do you have me. Before I go on and possibly forget, I want to be sure you do realize how very much, I do hate you. Not having you in my life makes me forgetful, foggy, sometimes cranky, hungry, oh yeah, and I'm healthier and smell so very pretty, big woop, I still miss you so much.
You have a strangle hold on some of my friends as well and I want you to leave them alone!! You are just awful to us all. No one likes you. You are not attractive. Like some of the others, I hope a big bus rides over you and crushes you to pieces!!
You make me sick! (literally) I will not allow you back in my life, no matter how hard you are trying to force your way back.
Mr. Cigarette, I hope you realize how awful you are. You will NEVER touch my lips again!! So stop pleading with me and infiltrating my thoughts. You are in my past and that's just where I am going to make you stay.
I do have one question though – was it as good for you as it was for me? Oh never mind!
I regret the day we met ! I am determined to stick to NO Contact and believe you me, it's not ploy to win you back!
Love and hate you always,
Allheart
Dear ex,
I can't be bothered to think of you anymore.
And banging on about you for so long has driven my friends and family crazy (almost), so I will cut that string you think I am attached to.
Geofferson
Hi all. I hope to god that in however many years time I'm not still thinking about my ex.
Its been about 2 months so far.and at mo,I can't get him out of my head,but after reading these posts its quiet scary to think that I will never get over him.
Dear Ex
You were my first love and I'll never love anyone like I loved you.
7 months ago we went on our first date and I got you the moment I met you and I'd like to think you got me too. We had such a lovely night and I'll never forget how well we clicked. I often go past the place of our first date on my lunch break and think I never thought 7 months ago we would be where we are now.
I only have nice memories of you, that's my heart taking over because you have messed up my head so much.
You knew how much I loved you, how I would do anything for you and how happy you made me feel. I think in some ways you took that for granted.
We had our rollercoaster ride for the first 5 months when there were times I couldn't see us lasting, then for that last month we seemed to sort everything out I was myself and you was yourself. We got on so well and everything seemed 'perfect'
So why 2 days before our 6 months anniversary did you cheat on me?
We talked about the future, going on holiday, my birthday and everything. I wasn't even scared about my new job because I knew that having you nothing else mattered. You told me your feelings were getting stronger that you loved spending time with me and talking to me on the phone (I miss our 2-3 hour convo's at night). This was Wednesday night then Thursday you kiss that girl - what was so special about her? What did she have that made you do it?
You have not only broken my heart but you have taken away everything I had, the confidence, the smiles and the happiness. You've left me in this emotional mess and you seem to be coping so fine!
How could you do this to me, did I really mean that little to you. I trusted you with my life and life doesn't seem so worth while any more! I can't even bring myself to talk to your sister who I got on with so well, she was like a sister to me as well.
I don't think I'll ever stop loving you ex, but I will get over you and re-build my life and I hope that when you feel about someone how I felt about that they do this to you. That would be the biggest punishment I could wish upon you.
But for now darling ex I have to move on and find myself who will love me the way that I wished you would love me. I will never trust a man again and for that I blame you.
I don't hate you ex but I have no respect for you.
Have a good life and say thank you to the girl that makes you feel how I do!
Love always
Dear my sweetness
God damm I love you so so much.its been two months,I never thought you would ever do this to me. You knew you were my first love,the love of my life,I would ave died for u,over and over again.and I still would just to ave u.
Meeting you was the best thing ever,
Glad I didn't lose you to anyone and that you didn't cheat on me,but I think that would ave been easier than drugs.
Why did you ave to do it,if I meant so much to u, why ?
I believe you still love me and wished there was something I could do, but I know they isn't.
Its killing me to ave no contact with you,the person that was my life and soul for two years.
Now I ave to re-build my life that you destroyed,I will never hate you and will always love you with all my heart.
Get clean, follow your heart and be happy.
To my ex.
We did nt really argue and we didn't havea lot of fights .
You said you wanted abreak and maybethats cause I wanted to see you too much.
I gave you what I could and was always there for you, you you wold ring me at night and say am I calling you too much and id say no, now I wish I hadn't of answered all those calls cause you told me you wernt emotionally in love, that happened ecause I was there at theend for you and you even said you love to hearmy voice before you fall asleep at night. You trapped me into this false belief after 3 years that you really loved me and I went from being the kind and generous guy, and started having thoughts like what if someone elase had you and how lucky I was to have someone like you and how I just wanted to see you all the time. Well this backfired on me and you said you needed a break if only I had of done more for myself and not put everything into you , everything was going so fine when I was doing more by myself and making you wait for me but love got the better pf me and I gave you too much of e and you walked away. Its amazing how when a girl really starts to believe you want her a lot she backs down. I regret ever not just staying calm and enjoying my life and fitting you in where I could, imean that's just when love takes over your mind and its probably not even love its just a bit of insecurity worrying about if you are good enough or how can I please her mote should I get her this, if someone else was with her and they sasw er all the time then I wouldn't. I've worked out that's crap when I saw er less she was so keen to see me and we had so much fun on the times when we did catch up cause we hadn't spent all our times together that's what ade her feel so much like she wanted o be with me...
To huny
U will be my only huny,I can't stop thinking of you and really want to.
Sometimes I wish I had never met you because then I wudn't b in so much pain.but I'm glad I did,and I will never love any one as much as I love u, if you don't find your way back to me,how will I ever trust any man again. There was a time where I cudn't bear it when you went away to work for the weekend,yet now its been a month that I haven't seen you for, I had nothink to worry about when I'm with u,
I feel guilty about going out and enjoying myself without u,yet your probably avein a good time getting high.y are you all I can think about.
I hope your thinking about me to.
Please find your way back to me.
I love you very much huny.
Always yours
Mwaa
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