Originally Posted by
XD005
Well I had been asking my parents for years to get me therapy, happy pills or something and they never did. I was suicidal at one point my self esteem was so low. Well I had a pretty crappy childhood. I'm not asking for sympathy but I've been through a lot. I was sorta an outcast in my childhood. While all my friends were out having sex and stuff, I was that guy that nobody ever had a crush on, would touch with a ten foot pole, etc, etc and it really took a toll on my self esteem, apparently. At least most people somebody WOULD have sex with you, but I was often told how sexually repulsive I was by many of my classmates, I got to watch the most jerkish guys come over and take all of my crushes right in front of my eyes. And even now, I'm hearing about all my friends saying how they lost it together with their significant others. I feel like I'm developmentally behind because I almost feel like a guy who has developed normally should have devirginized many girls at my age, thats what happens in society now a days. But I feel like by TRYING to be that one guy who tries to have a legitimate relationship is sorta in vain.
Why didn't I do what all the other guys were doing?