Emo,
She lusted you for a time. That time is over and gone forever. She did not love you.
Time to face it.
If it's love you wanted, she didn't, so let it go now.
If it's lust only you wanted, keep torturing yourself that now you'll never have the chance to have sex with her again.
It's your choice really.
You choose.

Emo, I was like you last couple of weeks, months... I couldn't get my ex out of my head. These guys in this forum tried their best to help me out, but I must admit that I didn't really believe them when they told me time will heal my wound and so on. Just the matter of time. But I have no patient. I was like "she's the love of my life" sort of thing. I kept asking myself "Why, Why, Why!!! Why me??? What if this and that? Maybe we will still be together???"... It was never ending and no matter how much I seek their advice, my head ain't going to accept it. And one fine day I decided to run away of the country. No doubt I did think of her at that time, but it wasn't that bad because I was so far far away from her. I get to see new things, meet new people and visit different countries with different cultures. I must admit that it does help. Maybe you can try this option...

As soon as I came back, her images started to conquer my head over and over again but it wasn't that bad again as compared to the pain I went through last couple of weeks or months. Two days later, I finally realized that this wound won't heal if I don't let go. I was going through a lot of websites for healing and I saw this picture... It was like a sign and it said "Child, but you have not let go". From that moment, I released my hands and I just let go. I let God clean up the mess. How can you heal when you keep holding on to these memories, what if and this and that? Imagine your car is in a bad shape and it needs to be fixed. How can the mechanic fix it when you're still holding or using the car? Same concept when it comes to your broken heart. Your heart needs a fix, overhaul or whatever it is. Let go so that you can heal. You will be surprised with the outcome when you have completely let go. No doubt you will still think of her off and on, you will need to change your focus until you don't feel the pain when her images pay you a little visit. Trust these guys here. They have been there. Done that. And they know exactly what you're going through. NC, Letting go and etc are the only way to heal your broken heart. Time is all you need. Be patient and obedient...

Hope it helps :)

Emo, here we are again.

Thought you were on your way.

Still letting your ex run sh$$t.

Thank you all! I'm doing a lot better!

It is crazy. Last Thursday, my ex's sister dumped my brother as well. They went out for 4 years. She said he didn't do anything wrong but she just needs be free because she keeps getting a strange feeling of emptiness and wants to figure what it means. My brother and I don't get what that means. What is going on with these girls? We were both good guys and my brother and his ex were even better together than my ex and I. It doesn't make any sense anymore. Bad guy or good guy, you just can't keep a girl happy it seems.

People's feelings change Emo,that's the long and short of it.

Now you can really help your brother by being a great supportive brother and friend.

Update: It is a full year since my break up. I am doing very well in school and I stay active playing sports quite often. I feel sooo happy for a long time and I never feel pain when I think of my ex. I realised I will always have a love for her no matter what and that is okay. I joined a chess club for 2 months now. I did leave my band as it just wasn't making me happy at all. It felt more like a burden. I have also met a new girl recently and she is really cool and different from anyone else I've ever met. Sometimes I still feel like being single which is good that I am not desperate to be in a relationship. I feel happy alone but sometimes it does feel good to know this girl is around so we can do things together. I see her again on Wednesday and I am taking it slow with her. She seems to really like me too. I have controlled my temper a lot more and when I see I am going to get annoyed. I feel really happy and you all helped me a lot and I am so thankful to you all! Thank you! I have never been happier, I think. It feels good to be alive again!

Emo, I am very happy for you. Thank you for the update.

Right on, emo. Keep it up.