My girlfriend is nowhere to find. The worst nightmare after the best dream.
I posted on this site a year ago about the story of this girl. At first, it was just an one sided love, however, I got her somehow.
And now, I don't know where she went.
Yesterday, like any other day, I woke up, went to my shop and then I went on chat. Everything was OK. Then I visited her like always and we watched a movie together. But when I went home, she wrote to me on my chat: "My mother found the test of pregnancy, I gotta go, don't write or call to this number anymore". Then when I called her, her mother had her cellphone and told me:"She has gone away, and I don't want her back". It was like 11 p.m then. I went out and tried to find her. I searched all the places we are usually spending together, but that was hopeless. Afterward, she called me from the pub near her house, but she didn't say anything. Then she hang the call up. I called back but she didn't get my call. I went immediately there but there was no one. It was for a.m. I went home and tried to sleep. But I can't when I knew that she was somewhere out there and I was thinking if it's possible for her to move somewhere far away and this thought makes me unable to sleep. Then at 7 a.m I tried to call her but her mother was there again and said she isn't at home. Then I found her sunglasses on my window. I didn't know what is the meaning of this.
I just want to see her again. I just want to feel her again. She was my 1st girlfriend. She was a soulmate, best friend, second mother and girlfriend to me.
Usually after a storm there's silence and everything will calm down. However, will this be the same?
It's been a long time since I've cried. If this continues, I won't be mentally healthy anymore.
I feel I'm just like a cub who is searching for the warmth feeling that he knew. Missing this feeling makes me feel insane inside me. I'm like an active volcano that knows that is going to to erupt, however, it doesn't know when exactly it will.
At this moment, I would be calling her like usually. It feels so different, when I'm not sure where she is, how she is doing and if she comes back.
Every second spending with her were every piece of happiness I could have.
I was so strong with her and yet, I feel so hopeless. Will she come back? If GOD exists then I want him to punish me instead and let her be. I would take that damage more easily . I still got a piece of hope. What should I do?