I've been out with my mate today, and was looking thorugh his sketch book... so many things he wrote I could relate with... al about his life, his girlfriend etc... heres someone I thought was so happy... I may av been wrong. But speaking of happy, 2 months ago I was at the highest of happiness. Ieverything career wise was going amazing, I had my girl, my bdan was on TV, everything was great and I couldn't av been more happier... thats when I got scared, I was just wiating for things to fall apart and stupidly rocked the boat and things did start to fall apart. I went out last night, spoke to afew girls in clubs, but nothing felt right. I just want to be with my ex... yet saying that I could never trust her again.

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Originally Posted by srulik86

ive been out with my mate 2day, and was looking thorugh his sketch book....so many things he wrote i could relate with...al about his life, his gf etc....heres someone i thought was so happy...i may av been wrong. but speaking of happy, 2 months ago i was at the highest of happiness. ieverything career wise was going amazing, i had my girl, my bdan was on tv, everything was great and i cudnt av been more happier...thats wen i got scared, i was just wiating for things to fall apart and stupidly rocked the boat and things did start to fall apart. i went out last nite, spoke to afew girls in clubs, but nothing felt right. i just wana be with my ex....yet saying that i could never trust her again.

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I know you you feel. I am at school at the moment so I can't IM you. But I can identify with the way you are feeling mate. It sucks. So what are you doing today? Are you being good to yourself?

Hey buddy,
I'm all good. I'm going out tonight. I went out last night and I just couldn't get it into my head that me and her are really over. It just wudnt sink in last night, I was thinking 'is she serious? Does she seriously want nothing to do with me ever again?' I wanted to text her and say 'look I'm not asking you back, just you need dto know that one day u WILL regret letting us go and will realise!' but there's no point in my sending that. I just want to spend my night with her 2nitem, but instead I'm seeing friends which will be cool, but id rather be snuggled up in bed with her. I just feel like I'm not making any progress.

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hey buddy,
im all good. im going out 2nite. i went out last nite and i just cudnt get it into my head that me and her are really over. it just wudnt sink in last nite, i was thinking 'is she serious? does she seriously wnat nothing to do with me ever again?' i wanted to text her and say 'look im not asking u back, just u nee dto know that one day u WILL regret letting us go and will realise!' but theres no point in my sending that. i just wanna spend my night with ehr 2nitem, but instead im seeing friends which will be cool, but id rather be snuggled up in bed iwth her. i just feel like im not making any progress.

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Mate you are making progress. You wanted to text her but you did not. That is progress. I felt the same way yesterday.

Just remember we are all doing this one day at a time. You are not alone. We are all sucking wind at the moment but we will be okay with time. YOu are a source of inspiration to me. Keep letting us know you feel. I know it hurts like blazes but that's okay and normal. YOu are a good person. Hang in there mate.

Just keep going. Its not easy, but you will come out the other end of the tunnel your in now.

Ooo witchywoman,
I like what Damaged said about making a doll out of her,
Let me know if you want an authentic voodoo doll in her image,lol!
Feel better it takes time

Haha thank you witchywoman!

I actually came on here at 3:30am this morning after a night out ready to rant about my ex... f104 got it on msn haha... sorry buddy!

But I've just had enough, I went out last night,saw my friends and the goirls were euther getting their breatst out much to the annoyance of their bfs, every couple there had an augment by the end of the night and were all miserable with each other and the girls I did talk to all had bfs... which made me think 'how can I ever trust a girl?' and not only that but is there really such thing as love. I'm a big romantic, and a big flirt, but when I av a girl in my life who I love oim compltly devoted to her, I just, after my bad experience with women, don't think I can ever trust another woman again. Why is it that after a night out couples must argue, why do some girlsscream for guys attention by flashing or talking to other guys whilst their bfs aren't about
I just don't think I can ever love/trust again afterf being hurt so bad by all my ex;s especially my previous, but I don't want to end up alone but know I will with this mentality.

Try something new and different, like volunteer work at a local hospital. Trust me after seeing others who are in need and have issues, you'll get a much clearer, and healthier perspective of life.
Your lousy love life, is not the only thing happening around you, and you must open your eyes, to see it.

Yep your right! But being surrounded by EVERYONE in a couple it makes me think that's what I should be doing, being in a relationship. Like it's the 'done thing'. And I know it isn't, which is why I just want to get out and away from everyone in these couples. I spent 3 years in college with everyone paire dup except me, noe I'm out of college all my mates and I mean ALL of them are who keep bringing their girls out. Wudnt say I'm jeaous, but its depressing.

Sorry guys I just feel so low at the moment. I really really miss her, and want to just be the way things were which I know is just not the case. All my friends av their own lives now, who I rarely see and when I do I just get to see the coiuples rub it in my face. I just feel so lonely at the moment. My best mate is in another country and won't be back for ages. I just want to call her and have a chat. I just want to av a laugh again and smile again. A month ago I wa son top of the world. I had everything.. now I feel like I don't av anything.

Hi Srulik,

I am so sorry that you are feeling so sad. I know it is hard, and I know how you feel. My friends are all married and have moved to different states. I am basically alone here. I miss my ex so much. I love him with all of my heart, and it is so tough. I try and keep myself busy, but there are days were I have no 'get up and go'. We all must keep ourselves occupied, especially when our friends are in relationships or not around. We have to be our own best company. I know that sucks, but we have to some how do this. Do you have any hobbies or things that you would like to do that you have never done before?

I actually used to love spedning time with myself and am one for doing that and can av fun on my own, but since splitting with her she is all I can think about. I'm a trained actor, recently graduated, and so kind of doing the networking, writingletters, auditioning and setting up my own company with my mates which is awsome. But she is an actress too, in her first year so my only thoghts of drama school are of her now which is really sad and every time I go back, which I do at least once a week for dance, and seeing friends, I see her and that gets me down. I would really love to travel to america but I really av no money at all. I really want to read more, would lovbe to join a baseball/softball team... and above all, meet someone new. Like you said I just don't av the get up and go sometimes. But I need to drive myself and be who I was before I met her, a very confident young actor, driven, hard working and happy with my station in life. But now I just feel low, I've never felt so alone in my life. I just want to do something life changing and stop feeling that I should be like my friends who have steady jobs and settled down with their girls. Right that's it! Today I'm going to write the rest of my play, going to read a book and sig up to join a baseball team. I'm currently working so I'm getting money which is nice. I'm not saying I even want my ex back because I don't think I could ever trust her again, but I just miss her company so much.

I hate to be such a MOTHER, on FATHER'S day, but getting off the pity pot, and getting some action going, even if its cleaning your mirrors is what you need.

ACTIONS, NOT WORDS.

Yep your right buddy, had a good chat with a friend earlier who put a lot of things in perspective, going to go do what I want to do.

AGGHHHH! I was just on Facebook and a friend added a video from college, which I watched and my bloody ex is in it! AND now she's all ing up my mind! Agghh! I want to contact her, but I just know I shudnt. And wats worse is in 2 weeks I have to go watch my student films and she'll bloody be there! I don't want her back but I miss her like mad. I just got to ride the seas!

Srulik mate don't do it. Man my computer at home is down at the moment or I would IM you.
Hang in there mate.

Cheers buddy. I won't. Its just s hard... knowing she is out there and knowing watshe is doing and seeing her happy.

Well then you should try to be happy too!. Its hard, but you got to try.. Smile even if you don't feel like it.. lol... you"ll see you'll end up felling better afterwards :)... I've tried it..

Hi Srulik,

Everyone is right. Try and do something that will make you happy! I wouldn't contact your ex though, because even at the moment you feel good talking with her, when the converstation is over, you will feel miserable. You are doing so well, try not to give in!

I won't! I really won't! I just had news on a big audition today and its horrible because I want to share the news with her. Though I'm sure it has got back to her since I told mutual friends. I couldn't have her back, I just miss her.