Is she just filling her ego or does she actually care about me?
It has been over 3 months since my ex broke up with me and lately it has been really depressing me. I stayed really good friends with her sister who doesn't respect her sisters decision at all. My ex after the first month is already with a new guy who doesn't live in the same city and she thinks its stupid and won't last. I went to coffee with a friend 2 weeks ago but I told my ex's sister that it was a "date" just to see if I would get a reaction out of my ex. The day after I told her this I got a text message from my ex asking me how I have been so right there I know she told her this. I never responded for a week and went on my "date". The following Thursday I was dumb and sent my ex an email asking how she has been. That night, I got a phone call from her out of nowhere and we talked for a good 20 minutes. She asked me how I was, how her sister talks about me and she has to ask her how I am doing all the time and how her family misses me. She then out of nowhere asked me about my "date" and asked if I liked her. I told her that I didn't have connection with her and that it was hard to be on it. She then said that she really wants us to be friends again and that she misses talking to me but doesn't know if that's what I want. She said she will do anything I need her to do to make this easier on me. I told her that I do want to talk with her but its just really hard to talk like we used to and that I don't know what I want. I don't know if she is just puttiing it on me to make a decision so she doesn't have to or does she actually care about me and what I want.
The next week I bumped into her at the same bar with her sister and right when she got in and saw me she came over and said hi with a big smile on her face. We talked for a bit but it was just small chit chat. She said that this is really awkward and I said yeah it is.. then she said well lets try and not make it awkward. We talked for a bit and then all night I tried to ignore her every time I saw her. Then she left with some friends and I never saw her again that night. To me I felt she didn't put much effort into our meeting seeing as she wants to be friends so badly. So I am confused, everyone tells me that it seems like she is just trying to feed her ego by asking about my date and how it went so she can find out if I still love her. Her sister at the bar asked me if I still love her and I said yes but its awkward to see her. And for her wanting to be friends after being together for 6 years and then breaking up, they think she wants me to be friends again so she doesn't have to feel bad about what she did anymore and she will know that I am over her... which I am not. Do you all think this could be the case? Please any insight or help would be appreciated!