Ive dealt with the anger part and also the love thing and I learned that after time passes so does the anger and all that is left was what I started with and that's that love feeling so even if you can't be with a person don't waste your time being angry at them don't hold a grudge life is too short and also don't waste your time loving someone who will never love you back I had to learn that the hard way. And she is probably treating you that way because she feels no other way to tell you she doesn't want to be with you . But I've also learned that for some things sorry just doesn't work.

It's been a while since I have talked to my ex. But, I still find myself putting her up on this pedestal. After everything she has put me through, I still think of her as this sweet innocent girl. The girl I fell for. It makes it hard because right now, I feel naked. I feel as though I have been stripped of something? I went to the club the other noght with friends, and I find it hard to even mingle with girls on a normal level. I never had this problem before I met my ex. But for some reason, I just feel awkward. I'm not sure if I am feeling a little self conscious because of the break up, or what the deal is. Maybe it's because I have been out of the dating, getting to know them game for so long? I think right now, I feel more like I have been betrayed by a very good friend. I am losing a lot of my "In Love" feelings for her at this point. I find myself longing for her, but I catch myself. I honestly believe that I am not longing for her exactly, but I am longing for a connection that I had with her. Now, I am not saying I want the connection with her back. Simply that connection I had felt with a woman. I don't have any trouble feeling attracted to other women at this point, but I always feel as though its too soon already. I know that I am rambling, and I will leave this where it is for now. I'm sure I'll have more to say, if I can get some help on these feelings.