Life seldom judges right, or wrong, but its more how we react to what life throws at us, and the feelings that get brought to the surface, and stirred around. No one can predict the outcome of their actions, or the actions of others, all we can do is cope with the experience, learn, and try to do better next time.

Sounds like you are becoming a victim of your own fear, or guilt, and hopefully you can overcome it to grow and live through this experience. Its not easy, and it takes time. Eventually you will be able to take risks again, instead of being afraid to take a chance.

Tal man,

You know, you watched me go through this relationship from just what I posted in the friends or more thread,

Man, I know you can only go from what I posted but this woman loved me, and I put her through **** and she still stuck by me. I tried putting her through one last thing and it was way too much for her. Then after she broke it with me I coouldn't just respect her wishes and leave her alone... I had to go through the stupid calling messaging **** to get her to the point of completely hating me. Its hard living with myself knowing how badly I screwed up while with her and after it broke off... im not a stalker or the guy that made all these mitakes, when it does it end?

Im so embarrassed and angry and hurt and ashamed and don't know how I could ever be with anyone again.


I couldn't believe what I put her through and so what do I do, I put her through it again,

Unbelievable,

I am not the kind of guy who would do it let alone do it again, but I did,

I can never see it until its too late and I've made it a big mess it seems.

At some point you have to let those feelings go, and forgive yourself, and learn to make better decisions about your actions. Feelings will always get in the way of Good Orderly Directions, but its up to YOU to get beyond the feelings, and deal with the facts.

No excuse for knowingly doing the wrong thing, so get your a$$ off the pity pot, and start doing the right things for yourself, and others. If you don't know what the right thing to do is, ask someone who does, or think about it until you do!