I just want to be his number one again. God I got to snap out of this! Arghhhhh

You seem to be at a standstill here. You repeatedly mention that you don't understand why he just out of the blue changed.. and that you still think 'how he could have done this to you'.

No matter what advice you get, you are still going along with the flow and staying confused. Get your answers - THEN do the REAL no contact - because you haven't really started that. You are still walking around with only him on your mind - claiming that you 'want him back but can't contact him'.

You and only you can make your choices here, but at least make some! Otherwise, this thread and your life will continue to go back to square one with you wishing a different outcome each time. WISHING is not going to make anything happen and you know it. The 'holidays are still a bit away - you could be spending them with someone else, so stop dwelling on this issue. When we say look forward we don't mean toward your wishes, but toward reality.

Either find him, get your answers, and move one or...
Live with what's going on now, forget him, and start your steps to healing.

Again, it's your choice, just don't stay planted as if in cement like you are now - move it.

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You are right, you all are right its just me, I just can't seem to move on. And I do want to , but I am confussed and confussing myself with everything.

I'm going to try all I can to forgot about the holidays and stuff, your right it could be with someone else, and nooone wants a depressed chick on there arm!

I am very glad I blocked his number.. Because even though I would like to talk to him some times I know it won't benefit me in any ways.. & many times I hv my weak moments but still I don't call him.. but maybe if he calls I may be tempted to answer.. so by blocking his number I don't know if he is trying to contact me.. I just think its better to leave it like that..

I can't even get my phone company to block any number so that won't work, in time when I'm ready I will change my number. Just hassle letting everyone know

Hey

I thought I would come back on here and give you an update of my situtaion and to say thank you for all your help and advice!

I am nearly 7 months on from the break up and fell so much better for it, I'm not completley over him and every time I c him I say hello and walk on, he seems to want to stop and chat but won't let that happen.

I have changed my mobile number and moved jobs, and have started seeing someone new. Funny how things turn out!

So thank you all again

Debbie xxxx

You go, girl