In this relationship I am the logical thinker - I always look for a rational explanation, even when I should be using my emotions to make a decision. I usually look for an A or B answer, and I have come to realize that when it comes to personal interactions there isn't always a right or wrong, its simply based on personal feelings and emotions.
With regards to being smitten over him - I already told him I was walking away and that if he realized later that it was a mistake it was his loss - he suggested a compromise. To work on things together, because to be honest the issues that caused the break up were never resolved. If he had not shown an interest to fix our issues then I would have been walking away. Trust me, this is not easy - working on things, admitting you're wrong - its all hard and I have realized this. I was never a person to admit my wrong doings and do something about them - but I know that everyone has their short comings and we need to learn to work together to fix the issues - if I run from this, I will be running from a lot and will never learn how to fix things.
I read the book - in one day actually because I wanted to understand things.
What I don't think you all are understanding is - I did tell him I was walking away - I did not cry, and I even brought him all of his belongings back - he is the one that initiated the compromise.
