Thank all you guys for all the great advice. It really helps hearing from people who have gone this before. I felt really alone for a long time in my pain, but this site really helped me out.

But I still can't decide on what to do, on whether to hit her up or not. Sometimes I want to hit her up and tell her I can't be waiting for her anymore, that I'm gone forever. Other times I don't want to hit her up, just keep trying to forget her. But I know we will talk one day, and I'm coming to the realization that she's not coming back to me. And I feel that when I get the confirmation that its done 100% and the break turns into break up, I will go back to square 1. Why shouldn't I just get it over with so that day 1 starts again while its only been 2 weeks, instead of waiting and day 1 starts again after like a month or more?

How about leaving her alone and dealing with yourself and see how you feel after you have healed properly. Be it a month, decade, a year, or forever.

When in doubt, think before you act or speak, but informing her of your intentions is a bad move. KEEP NC!

I think you have already gotten your confirmation.

Just don't wish to realize it.

Didn't sound like she was really invested in you anyway.

These "breaks" especially with young girls are just a way to do what they really want & maybe have you waiting as a backup plan.

Stay NC & have your own fun without her. That's what she's doing.

Forget this BS "time limit" to wait around for her. That's stupid.

It has now been exactly two weeks of NC. Man is this NC stuff hard. But I have a question, is it still considered NC if I still talk to the little sister? For example, we talked earlier today and she said my ex (still getting use to saying that) still asks about me. She gives me the impression that she's coming back...

NC means no talking to her family and friends,and getting updates.

Sorry,but as long as you keep getting those updates you're not in complete no contact.

It is starting to get easier and easier. While it is still hard, I can now notice the difference. I just have a quick question. Is there any strategies or anything you guys recommend to forget about her more? What I'm saying, is that I still see little reminders of her everywhere. Like I make a connection to her out of things that shouldn't. For example, my friend was talking to me about a basketball game that took place last year, and the first thing in my head was "i was still with her back then." Im getting better, like I don't dwell on the thought for long periods, but any recommendations for me guys?

That's good-it will get easier,day by day.

When the memories float to the surface, you distract yourself and get busy thinking about something else.

Its all normal,so don't worry.

Time and patience-and keeping busy will work wonders.

Those kinds of thoughts will pass away in time, as long as you don't dwell on them.

Its so hard. Im on day 16 of NC and today is one of those days where I don't feel strong. Yesterday was my college graduation festival. I got my cap & gown, ordered my invitations, took my grad photo, and ordered my class ring. Throughout the whole day, I kept thinking about how I wish I could share my moment of pride and extreme happiness with her. I had a grad dinner where the school honors all the graduates, you were allowed to bring one guest. All I could think about is how I wish she was there, to share my moment with me. How is it that even after all the pain and hurt she put me through, I still want to share the most important and precious moments of my life with her?

These are good exercises to learn how to enjoy things without her.

Keep it up.

Now the situation gets a little more confusing. So I was texting my exs little sister all day yesterday. Mostly talking about my upcoming graduation from college, I sent her a pix text of me in my cap & gown. While we were texting, she sends me a text that said "(my exs name here) wants to know if she can go to your graduation." I didn't know how to respond, because I want my exs mom and little sister there but I don't want my ex there. This feeling can change, as I don't graduate until June 12th. But as of right now, I don't want my ex there. I told her 2 tell my ex if she want to go she has to hit me up and ask me herself. Then I say, "why would you wanna go to your exs graduation?" Her little sister says "Cuz (my exs name here) says your not her ex." Im trying to move on with my life and forget about her, but that made me feel really good Im not going to lie. Then I got back to reality and tried to push that thought out of my head, because she is my ex to me. I told her little sister this, and she said, "but your not exs....." so we kept texting throughout my day at work. Her little sister says that even if me and my ex don't get back together, my ex still wants to be at my graduation. All day I kept telling myself to not get filled with false hope. She then told me my ex was going to counseling at her college next week. I asked her why, and she said it was because my ex has a lot going on in her life right now and needs help sorting out her emotions. (my ex was always bad at this). Her little sister says my ex wants an unbiased opinion and advice. This means that her little sister tells her how stupid she is for leaving, and that her friends keep telling her to leave me. (I hate her friends now). After I got off work, me and her little sister talked on the phone for a long time and had a really good talk. We talked about our day, my graduation, my ex, her relationship with her boyfriend, and just life in general. But now I can't figure out how to feel about all of this. When I talked to my friends about this, they are now all convinced that she will come back to me. They say she's going to see counseling because she knows she has a problem and is trying to change. Im not trying to get my hopes up, so I have the same attitude as I did before. Im just focusing on me, and when she does get at me, I will see how I feel if she indeed wants to try us again. But I'm not holding my breathe right now. Or at least I'm trying not to, I feel like sub-conciously I might be getting filled with false hope. Should I read anything into the counseling thing, or is our situation still the same? Is this a sign that she realizes she has a problem, or has she made her decision already and is looking for validation? Please help, I don't know how or what to feel about her anymore. Any advice would be great right now.

Don't hold your breath.

For now as good as it feels to communicate with her family and little sis its only going to lead to false hope. Every little thing she says you will read into and somehow tie it back to you and your EX. I have been there before and honestly wish I would have went total NC from day one. It took me so long to get over her because we both couldn't let go. All those things you said I thought was true of me and my ex. I knew and everyone else "knew" that we would get back together. Only we aren't! Just be careful man and really listen to what people say on this site. Don't fall into the trap of false hope. It makes the break up so much harder.

What the freak makes you think little sis knows what the freak she is talking about.

Get that kid out of grown folks business, and don't you know that children should be seen and not heard.!

Why would a grown man be listening to a child with an OBVIOUS agenda?? You have got to be kidding, and should have broken contact to begin with.

At least lay down the law as to what can be discussed. Your personal business is off limits.

You're not doing NC so long as you keep getting these biased updates.

Cut the contact and start moving on for real.

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For now as good as it feels to communicate with her family and lil sis its only going to lead to false hope. Every lil thing she says you will read into and somehow tie it back to you and your EX. I have been there before and honestly wish I would of went total NC from day one. It took me so long to get over her because we both couldnt let go. All those things you said I thought was true of me and my ex. I knew and everyone else "knew" that we would get back together. Only we aren't! Just be carefull man and really listen to what people say on this site. Dont fall into the trap of false hope. It makes the break up soo much harder.

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Yea I'm starting to wish I would have went NC from not just her, but her whole family day one. Its just so hard, because her little sister is such a close friend to me. And their mom is like a 2nd mom to me, actually she is more of a mom to me than my biological mom is. I don't want to just push people away from me who have done nothing but been good and show me a lot of love and support. I know that deep down in my heart my ex isn't coming back. Its just that I sometimes get confused, because everyone around me says she will come back. My family, my friends, her little sister, classmates, my boss, everyone! Everyone says she's not as stupid as to throw away over 3 yrs. But I know she already has. Overayear1, how long did it take you to get over your ex? Because I feel as if both me and my ex can't let go, even though our time has come.

Just to clear things up, my exs little sister is only 1 yr younger than my ex. They're basically the same age. I know its still kind of young, but you also got to realize that I'm still kind of young. Its not like a 28 year old is talking to a 15 year old high school student guys haha. How can I ignore the little sister who comes to me for advice and stuff? And their mom considers me a close friend, not just a daughters boyfriend. This is where being a nice guy and having everyone like you sucks...

You don't listen to people's opinions,you look at,in this case,her actions.

They say it all.

And,yes,sometimes we have to walk away from people who have been our friends when there is a break/breakup.


All this secondguessing and overanalyzing leaves you confused,so you make a choice to either remain confused,or go radiosilence on these people and allow yourself to move forward.

It's up to you.

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You dont listen to people's opinions,you look at,in this case,her actions.

They say it all.

And,yes,sometimes we have to walk away from people who have been our friends when there is a break/breakup.


All this secondguessing and overanalyzing leaves you confused,so you make a choice to either remain confused,or go radiosilence on these people and allow yourself to move forward.

It's up to you.

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Wow amicon, you give great advice. A lot of people on this great site give great advice. This site gives me a place to vent, and to come to on those days when I don't feel so strong. And thank all of you guys for this. What you stated is exactly why I think my ex isn't coming back, her actions. She left, so she is gone. Everyone is so convinced that this counseling thing is a good thing, that she thinks she has a problem and is trying to fix it. I hate being filled with false hope. I've decided to go completely NC with her family as well. So that I can really move forward. Im going to be on this site a lot more now, because it is going to be really really hard to leave the other people. I credit them with me finishing college, they believed in me when even I didn't believe in me. This is going to be hard.

Thank you and come here whenever you need to.

You've made a wise decision,total NC with all of them,no matter how hard that is WILL make things much less confusing and you can start moving on.

Its not an easy path to follow,but I know you will be OK.

One day at the time.

Yea I feel like Im going to be on this site for a long time. I have started helping other people who have just gotten dumped also, I find that it helps also. Im really trying to take it one day at a time, but its so hard because they were in my life everyday. They were a big part of my life. They were my family more than my real family is. I really loved those people. Its been 2 days with NC with the family. I already want to call

Join the party, every single person here has been through those very same feelings. Some more than others, but we stick it out, and get healthy again.

So will you.

This is a party I wish I wasn't invited to haha. I was reading another post, and it said that hope dies last. This is so very true. This whole "break" gives false hope, I know that when she does come calling back to say that she doesn't want to give it another try I'm going to be devastated again. Back to square 1. No matter how much I feel I've gotten over her, I know this is what will happen. Im doing a lot better lately, but I woke up this morning feeling weak. I dreamed about her, it was so good and felt so real. Then I woke up and just cried. It hurts more because I know I'm the last thing on her mind.

Helping others is a great thing and by doing that you'll find you grow as a person.

This girl doesn't define who you are,whether she turns up in your dreams or possible tries to get in touch weeks down the line to give you
'the final chop' is really not important.

What is important is how you handle yourself now.

Nobody has any power over you-unless you let them.

You're the emotional romantic type huh? I get it.

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Helping others is a great thing and by doing that you'll find you grow as a person.

This girl doesnt define who you are,whether she turns up in your dreams or possible tries to get in touch weeks down the line to give you
'the final chop' is really not important.

What is important is how you handle yourself now.

Nobody has any power over you-unless you let them.

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Helping others is always good. I love helping people, and having other people like you guys help me makes me feel reall good. I hate how I give her so much power over me. I feel like NC is going to be good and help me stop giving her power. I feel like I'm getting better lately though, I'm at school now and I got work later on today so that should keep my mind occupied. I feel stronger now than I did this morning

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You're the emotional romantic type huh? I get it.

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Really I'm not. Or maybe I am now. I was never like this before. Then I found myself getting to be like this after getting with her. I am romantic, but I was never hella emotional until now. I do feel like I am changing. Is it wrong to be this way?

There is no right or wrong to who you are, if you're happy with it.

"I hate how I give her so much power over me"

Doesn't that suck...

All in your mind now, buddy. She isn't around.

"I do feel like I am changing. Is it wrong to be this way?"

Change is all you need & more of it!!

Whooo Hooo!!

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There is no right or wrong to who you are, if you're happy with it.

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Yea I agree with your statement, just don't know if I like the way I'm changing. I do feel like I've grown as a person in this relationship, but at the same time Im opening myself up to get hurt. Like I've never been in this much emotional/mental pain. I don't like how other people can hurt me so much because Im much more open towards people. Guess I just need time. How do you make the clock move faster haha. 4 real though...

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"I do feel like I am changing. Is it wrong to be this way?"

Change is all you need & more of it!!!

Whooo Hooo!!!!

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Yea I know its all in my head. As more time passes I am starting to realize this more and more. I do need change, I want change. But now I'm hella scared. Im not scared of being by myself, but of going through this again. Its not much incentive when all you do is love, always be there for the other people, are always understanding, never did the other person wrong, and always had their back and all you get is this. Not much incentive at all.

You can still love & be there for people. Just not her.

Nothing to be scared about. Just a life lesson to become more aware for later.

That's the incentive. To learn from this and become stronger.

Adro, I just read through your thread - you're doing great, you will get there with time. Keep on living life and let time do its thing.

I just got over a 2.5 year, first love breakup as well, that started with the too familiar "break" idea on her part. You can see from my thread this site was such a help. I started and sounded just like you did. I couldn't imagine life without her. But now after several months I am already posting new questions in the dating section about a new girl I met. I can't imagine ever wanting my ex back even if she came running to me.

Time does heal, you will find someone else, you are young and will laugh about this in the future. You may feel deceived, hurt, may feel low-confidence, and you will never understand. But in time you will realize those feelings are not sincere and understanding does not matter. You will realize yourself worth again and realize someone better deserves you.

Keep at it man. Move forward, a brighter day is in the future

You change for yourself,when and if you feel the need to.

When people behave in a hurtful manner,its up to us how we allow ourselves to feel once the initial shock has worn off.

We can make the choice to let go of that pain and not let it affect us anymore.

As for time,it tends to pass more quickly when we keep ourselves busy.

As you learn about yourself, and find the direction you want to go, you will be much more able to take reasonable risks with your own heart, and though things happen beyond your control, you will have developed better coping skills for yourself, that may even make you bolder.

I swear it makes a difference when you have an exit strategy, based on experience, trial, and error you can fall back on. It still sucks every time, but at least you are better prepared for it, and know what to do about your own emotions.

Its all about how you cope with your own feelings, no matter the situation. Sorry, growing is a process you can't control.

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Adro, I just read through your thread - you're doing great, you will get there with time. Keep on living life and let time do its thing.

I just got over a 2.5 year, first love breakup as well, that started with the too familiar "break" idea on her part. You can see from my thread this site was such a help. I started and sounded just like you did. I couldn't imagine life without her. But now after several months I am already posting new questions in the dating section about a new girl I met. I can't imagine ever wanting my ex back even if she came running to me.

Time does heal, you will find someone else, you are young and will laugh about this in the future. You may feel deceived, hurt, may feel low-confidence, and you will never understand. But in time you will realize those feelings are not sincere and understanding does not matter. You will realize your self worth again and realize someone better deserves you.

Keep at it man. Move forward, a brighter day is in the future

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I just read your thread robinboston and its very good to read something that is kind of similar to my situation and going through it not that long ago. I really hope I can laugh at all of this later on. I am getting over it, but I don't know if Im ever going to remember this time without associating it with pain and hurt. Im really happy for you man, Im glad your heart let you grow feelings for someone else. Because mine right now just wants to be alone.

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You change for yourself,when and if you feel the need to.

When people behave in a hurtful manner,its up to us how we allow ourselves to feel once the initial shock has worn off.

We can make the choice to let go of that pain and not let it affect us anymore.

As for time,it tends to pass more quickly when we keep ourselves busy.

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Even though its been almost a month, I still don't think the shock has completely worn off yet. I still can't believe that one day its all "i love you so much" and the next day she's gone. It really is getting easier, and NC is really helping. My problem is that she's still on my mind a lot. While its not 24/7 anymore like it use to be, I still think about her too much. Stuff that I use to like and think of with a smile (I work really close to her moms house and use to like the feeling of knowing she's five minutes away) I now hate.

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As you learn about yourself, and find the direction you want to go, you will be much more able to take reasonable risks with your own heart, and though things happen beyond your control, you will have developed better coping skills for yourself, that may even make you bolder.

I swear it makes a difference when you have an exit strategy, based on experience, trial, and error you can fall back on. It still sucks every time, but at least you are better prepared for it, and know what to do about your own emotions.

Its all about how you cope with your own feelings, no matter the situation. Sorry, growing is a process you can't control.

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Everything is hella true that you said. Ive never been in this situation before, so all this pain is brand new to me. I am learning to cope though a lot better, this site and the people on her are a god-send. I know for sure though that if I hadn't found this site I would have gone through more pain. I know I wouldn't have been able to go NC without all you guys support. Thanks everyone.

The pain lessens day by day-as you seem to have noticed.

The thoughts of 'the happy times'will lessen as well.

It takes time,but you have come quite some way since you first came here.

Thanks amicon, I feel like I have come a long way also. Time does heal, even if its just a tiny bit day by day. I just feel bad sometimes because I have so many reminders of her everywhere. I work close to your house, she gave me her cell phone, she bought like half of my clothes, her name is my password to all my log ins, and so much more. The thing that gets to me the most is when I see other couples in public. I always think of her when I see others holding hands, when I hear certain songs, when I see someone driving the car she has. I don't know why my heart likes torturing itself like this.