Originally Posted by
Fallen4rmGrace
Once again, I never planned anything. I already stated that, yes, maybe I did subconsciously want it to happen, but I never planned anything out.
Do I feel bad for him? Absolutely! He and I were friends, we looked out for one another, and I betrayed his trust by making stupid decisions. I was molested by my 13-year old cousin when I was merely six years of age, and, even though I have forgiven, I've never forgotten. I don't expect my former friend to welcome me back into his good graces with open arms, not already having some knowledge on similar situations. I've already accepted that I may lose him as a friend, completely.
I'm seeking counseling. In a sense, I was already seeking counseling when I came here, professional or non. I'm used to harsh criticism, and I'd much rather someone give me harsh criticism than sugarcoat their commentary. The reason why I disagreed with KitKat, going off of the site rules, is because he/she was, indeed, wrong by saying that I'm asking for trouble and "fanning the flames". I just feel like I'm being made to seem like an all-around bad person when I am not.