Trusting him again would be a suicide. And yes if you are ready for the never endingpain of spying cheating then continue this relationship and destroy your life.My love I know you would get a wonderful life partner who would be your even moreclose friend won't give you pain and lie all the time. I know its damn painfulto see your dreams hopes and memories burning badly into fumes.

10 months are nothing you will forget them easily just be happy that you arefree from that torture of cheating. Go travel somewhere be with people who arewaiting to be with you. They love you and you should be with them not him.