Dear stuckrighthere. Reading your words I feel you're a man of kind heart. May I ask if your kids are already having a step-father or someone like that? If not, forgive me if what I'm going to say here is impossible to you, but the place where your kids are is the best place for you to go to, in my opinion. They need their own father. As you've seen being a step-father you've tried with all your heart but things didn't work.