Stay with NC & you wouldn't have these worries. You are causing it now.

Sounds like she is still ruling your existence.

Everyone has basically said ignore her.

What's the problem?

I guess the problem is me. I fall for her wanting to see me and the misses me and whatnot's every time. Not going to lie and say I don't want to see her. I really do even though I know it will make me feel good while we are together then complete crap after she leaves again.

She makes it seem like something is still there and I hang onto it hook, line, and sinker.

Totally.

I understand completely. The dust hasn't really settled yet. The facts. The reality.

That she isn't your girl anymore, & won't be.

That's why NC is so crucial right now. Any contact w/her is going to fill your head with hopes fueled by memories & expectations.

When I joined here, I was pretty low. Damaged.
Didn't even know what NC was. Never heard of it. But did it 5 days after my ex dropped the bomb.

Never faultered. Never caved.

So glad I did. Taught me a lot about myself.

Do the same now. Live drama free.

Be your own boss. No one else's.

Everyone makes mistakes mate, hell I almost broke NC yesterday but I got slapped round the head by vanheart (thanks mate). Seriously she has shafted you, your seriously dodging a bullet by not being with her. She's texting you when she's basically with another guy, she's got a habit of keeping multiple guys on the go and by talking to her your rewarding her!

Cut her away and go out and live your life, seriously in two months you will be wondering what you were thinking (I know I sure am).

Good luck mate!

No worries elwood. Glad I could help.

The point is that (and we've said it) is that this girl wasn't good for you. In fact, simply the opposite. Not what you deserve.

You know that. I know you do. And with time that light switch will go off, and you will thank yourself.

The best thing you can do now is to block her a$$.

Buck up & face tomorrow with a smile on your face knowing that life is WAY better w/o her. Have fun.

Whooooo Hoooo!!

Yup.

NC is rough. Especially when offending party thinks they can have their cake and eat it too and continue to keep the contact like it's totally normal. You and only you have the power to end it, and the longer you're waiting, the longer it will take to get over her.

Do you want to live the way you live 3 months from now? How about a year from now? Because the way she keeps you on a leash, you'll be right where you are, confused and miserable and picking up any crumbs she's throwing your way.

Very well put. Couldn't agree more.