I'm doing okay. Still confused though.

ER,

That is so understandable. But I am proud of you. You did not and I know you will not contact him... not for him... but for you.. right?

I'm not going to contact him and he hasn't showed an effort of contacting me in anyway. He knows where I live. If something happened to where he couldnt' call he could have dropped by. We live near each other.

So, is he back from his trip?

I would assume so. He said he was going for the weekend. I am not sure. It just doesn't make sense to me. Why he would ask me if I wanted to hang out and then I didn't hear from him again. I know he went four-wheeling. If he lost his phone while he was four-wheeling he could have stopped by unless he forgot where I lived. So, I don't know.

ER,

Try and not give him a second thought. I fear, he may just call, so be prepared. Because I suspect, he will call, but not for the right reasons.

Deep down you know all of this don't you? Even as confused as this situation has been.
You know what is best for you.

Well, if he does call and wants to go out or something. I will not do what I did before and if he doesn't bother to get in contact with me again, then I will know.

ER,

You are doing so good. Keep it up!! Honestly.

Just stop and think what you would advise one of your girlfriends in this exact situation.

Thank you. I do appreciate your help with it.

ER,

It's not fun, It's not easy, and you know what, we all been there. But, you did great.
Really did.

I wish no one was in the position I am in to be honest. Its hurtful. I just have to be more careful who I trust.

ER,

I understand. For the moment you did trust him and he proved unworthy of your trust.
And yes, you will be more careful. I am so sorry it hurts, but the hurt will ease and at least you caught it early, in lieu of years down the road. Can you imagine that? So, as I said, be proud, some would allow the hurt to contiune. You did good... real good.

Yes, I'm glad I caught it early. That is something I have to be thankful for. People need to wake up and realize that others have feelings. No one should be treated badly.

So true. But that is why in a way I pity him. Could you ever imagine treating anyone like that.?

But you know what, how about we try and just leave him in whatever world or place he is in and not give him another second of thought.

It's about time, you concern yourself about ER and the things that make ER happy. Leave him behind as best as you can.

Sounds good. I'm going to move on. It's still depressing at times because I did like him a lot but there is bound to be someone out there that will treat me with respect and show me the love I deserve. I just have to wait patiently.

ER,

You deserve the Sun AND the Stars.. and you will get it. Hey, I am sure there was something very special about this guy, we all have a little bit of that in us, and you were beautiful enough, inside to see that in him. That makes YOU very special.. but like you said, there will be someone that will see that in you... and treat you the way you deserve.

I honestly and truly am so proud of how you handled this. It is so hard and yet, you are able to feel your pain, and hurt, but see past it, and know and want better for yourself.

I am so standing and applauding you!! Honestly.

Hi there. I just wanted to share my thoughts with you. I am going through a similar situation to yourself and I just wanted you to know that the hurt and the confusion will get better with each day. In fact by reading your story has made me feel better already because I know I am not alone. The advice you have already received is completely on the mark and I thank the writer of that also. I really hope that a person comes along who is worthy of you and also that time will heal your hurt.