Thanks everybody!I feel really better today!thanks to you. I spoke with my sister today.She is younger than me... I should've been an example to her... But I guess she has to find another example... I cried a lot. I never told anything about a baby to my family they would juge me... so now I can't even share this secret with anyone just GoD and you people.He didn't call today. He used to call everyday... Now I know if he does I'll have to ignore him. I'll try my best. I won't allow him to play with me again.

It's good you spoke with your sister.
Don't worry about having to be a perfect older sister,you are surely loved by your family for who you are.

As for speaking about your termination,what about confession?
I don't know what your faith is but that might be a good thing.

I know that as the days go by and you stay with the no contact you will feel better.