Okay, I got around to reading it.

Here's what I see. She gave everything to you, her body, her mind, her soul and her heart. You didn't feel the same way and slowly but surely pushed her away from you.

Now that she's moved on, you've had a epiphany. My God, you actually love this woman. Or do you? Is it possible you only want her because she no longer wants you, she's found someone else?

Stop torturing her. You tortured here through your relationship, now you're torturing her when she's doing her best to move on.

Harshness time. You don't deserve her. You never did.

Remember, if you love something, set it free, if it comes back to you, then it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was.

You're only thinking about yourself, just like you did all through your relationship with her.

Think about her for a change. Let her go. Let her be happy.

As for you, No contact. Will you love again? Possibly, but first you have to stop thinking only about yourself.

I have mixed feelings about this.

I don't think that the relationship broke up and she was surprised. Most likely she would have been quite tuned in, and knew when you had serious doubts about your future together. Things wouldn't have been 'quite right'.

That may be why she had prepared for more time than you think, for the inevitable breakup, and rebounded so quickly with another boyfriend.

She believed what you said, felt it was not a balanced relationship, and accepted that it was over.

That being said, I do believe that you have changed as a person. Sometimes it takes a loss to realize what and who are important in your life. When you look at life with a broader perspective, you see things in a different way.

How you regard her now, is likely how you realize you should have before.

It is what it is. If there is a shot at winning her back, it will be entirely up to her, but, you have given her truth and been honest about how you have changed.

I would simply ask her. Lay the cards on the table, and go for it. You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain.

If she says no, then respect her wishes, and realize that nothing else will work to win her back.

If she says yes, well, I sincerely hope it works out for the two of you.

Either way, I hope you find your answer one way or the other, and soon.