And all this happened when you broke up?? The day before??
I went on holiday with my ex a week before it happened. It all seemed fine, we even slept together (sorry if that's too much info) but I guess sleeping together does not mean one is happy.
Anyway, a week later, she goes out with her friend on a weekend, then calls me up on the Monday and tells me.
Take a look at my thread, loads of good advice from others + you can also compare the situation to gain insight. Wap has also got a good thread under still hurts topic.
Your ex probably had built up this breakup for some time, perhaps months because I believe mine did. You are way behind in the grieving process.
Do you want to know what mistake I think you made (please don't get hurt by this)
You were too available, a bit like I was, you lost your friends (I think, from what you say) and she became your world, she may have then thought that you were too needy and reliant on her...
Perhaps you need to work on these areas and become strong again. If she were to meet you again or contact you, you would have built a new, healthier you but by then you may have moved on and found better...
YES.. you put her on a pedistal, now it's time for you to be the man on the pedistal, with or without her...
You can learn from all this and maybe repair the damage but it may not be with her, it could be with someone else.. who knows?
I know it is hard, I find it really hard and after 3 years in a serious relationship, I don't think anyone would blame me and I certainly understand your pain. It is ONE of the hardest things we will have to deal with in life but things always happen for a reason...